Hi [@Daisyflower94]‍ 

My heart goes out to you, no wonder your feeling so anxious, your hormones must just be all over the place, so tired and fatigued over worry and chasing after twins. I am pleased that you do finally have an appointment.

I am not taking away from your worry, as I know how bad this waiting time is and the fears that go with it, your body has gone through months of preganancy and now months of more changes after giving birth. it is a stressful time and sleepless feeding pattern nights, without the extra worry of a lump that needs checking.

When I had my daughter I lost so much weight, a worrying amount of weight. This was just because I was alone and had to do everything, I was walking with her everywhere, carrying her everywhere, carrying shopping and not sleeping or eating properly. I had to stop breastfeeding her when she was only a few weeks old, I became very ill wilth blocked milk ducts, she would not latch on properly even the nurses couldn't help her latch on. This caused me to have an infection and need antibiotics. I have also had a cyst removed a couple of years ago (popped not removed)

Our bodies are amazing things, they take a lot, but sometimes they need a break too and the stress you have been under will make your body tense and strain and you have been putting it under a lot of strain. 

I can't even hazard a guess as to what the outcome is going to be and I certainly don't want to make light of the situation as I am not a nurse or Doctor, I just know the worry and stress your feeling and there is no quick fix for that. An already anxious person, now put under emotional turmoil at the time when the hormones are elevated of course is going to feel even more anxious, talking to people close they will probably be using the "don't worry"  and "it'll be fine" lines..... You are allowed to be anxious, you are allowed to worry. Just try to allow yourself to know these feelings are OK and take time to rest. Don't fight the feelings, just go with them if it means that you get to have a good old ball out cry it might release some pressure. 

I hope your appointment goes well and you can message me anytime xx

Thank you so much for your reply. I've read it over 3 times over the past few days and it's just nice to 'speak' with somebody who says more than, like you mention, "it'll be fine" "stop worrying". 
It is true that lots of my symptoms I am linking with potential cancer are also symptoms of stress and anxiety and I need to remember this but it's so hard to stay positive especially with two little humans to look after. As they say you can't pour from an empty cup and it's making being a new Mum 10x harder. I'm trying to pluck energy from places I don't have it and it's so exhausting. Let's hope for a good outcome on Tuesday! 
 

thank you so much again x

Hi there, 

just wanted to update on my app today. Turns out it is just a group of cysts- 5 to be precise! I just want to say thank you so much for your reply it really helped me through the tough few days leading up to the app so thank you. X

Hi [@Daisyflower94]‍ 

That is really good to hear. Thanks for the update and you must be feeling very relieved.

It also means that they now have an image of your breasts so any further screenings you have they will notice changes quickly so that is a good takeaway from this.

I am so pleased that all be it 5 cysts it is not bad news for you.