Hey everyone, first time posting after what has been the worst 6 months of my life, but here goes.....

Im a 23 yr old female. Recently i found a lump above my right collar bone. Its absent when my arm is down and relaxed, but pokes out when i raise my arm. Its hard and doesn't move, and its kind of like a rugby ball shape. Prior to this i've had a whole host of physical symptoms, all tested and checked out. 
 

i started having bowel trouble in october, diarrhoea etc a few months ago which i had a range of blood tests, stool tests (FIT, Coeliac and infection) all of which came back normal. Also had DRE which was also normal. Was put down to IBS which i accepted and moved on. 
 

is worth saying that i do have an anxiety disorder which i take sertraline for (5 weeks in).

i then started having chest pains and shortness of breath. I would be sat working and have intense urges to take a deep breath but be unable to take a satisfactory one - almost like i couldn't get to the bottom of my lungs. This came and went, excercise improved it and i never had any trouble with sleep i.e it never woke me up in the night. This told me it must be anxiety and i tried to move on. I eventually freaked myself out so much with the chest pain and palpitations so i went to a and e, where they ran an ECG, cardiac bloods and routine bloods. All came back normal and i was told just another terrible symptom of anxiety. 
 

I have also had some issues with swallowing - feeling like food is stuck in throat/chest and some pain when it reaches my stomach. I had been planning on getting a private appointment for this but recent devolopments mean that may not be necessary. 
 

i found the lump on my right collarbone a week ago, spoke to the doctor on the phone today and he ordered an urgent ultrasound in a week or so. Im absolutely petrified. Now im feeling around my neck snd there are even more hard sections and im terrified i have multiple tumours or lymphomas in my chest and neck. I've never been so terrified in my life and i've spent the last 6 months trying (and failing) to keep my anxiety at bay but this has confirmed all my worst fears. I feel like im dying and theres nothing i can do. 
 

The ultrasound is of my whole chest cavity and neck, and i'm pretrified of the results. Just really need someone to talk to about all of this as everyone in my life is sick to death of my panics. Just feel so alone and so terrified and just can't cope.

love to all of you and thank you in advance for any advice.

xxxx