I've recently had some bleeding after going to the toilet. It's bright red when I wipe and very little. 
 

It started a couple months ago, then went away for about a month now it's back. But now I have slight cramps to the left of my abdomen, when I say slight I mean like comes and goes and is subtle. But automatically makes me think the worse. I've put on quite a bit of weight recently. 

I wouldn't usually think much of it - but I'm so scared. my cousin currently has terminal cancer and is wary 30s (I'm 30). His was missed a few times by doctors with his symptoms being dismissed for other things. 

I'm seeing a doctor next week - but I'm honestly terrified - I can't sleep - I want to cry all the time.

I've convinced myself it's the worst case scenario - but I know the more rational answer is that it's something simple and that I have health anxiety. Could the anxiety be causing my cramping feeling? 

time will tell but I just had to get this off my chest.

my cousins illness is devestating my family so I just feel like I can't talk about it, one member of the family when I brought it up just said 'oh don't I honesty couldn't cope with you being ill too' and now I kinda feel like I don't want to know .