Mucus and Blood in Stool

Hi Everyone, 

I have had persistent blood in my stool for well over two years, I thought nothing of it thinking it was just a tear and I'd just keep swimming. But on Sunday (four days ago) I woke up went to the toilet as ususal and there was a pool of blood ( happened only once before). I then felt incredibly cold and dizzy and had to stay in bed the whole day.

I went to Urgent care the next day and they asked me why I hadn't come in sooner. Again, me being too proud, I said that I thought I could get through it. I got rused through the system, my blood being checked, MANY digital examinations, until the surgeon came out and said he thought it could be a herrmoid, but it was strange to feel it under the rectal skin and not on top. So I've been booked in for an urgent sigmoidoscopy on 13th of April 2021. 

I'm now looking back on how I've been feeling and I have no weight loss (damn!) I have no nuasea, no stomach cramps,rarely VERY tired. The symptoms I do have is intermittent rectal bleeding, some tierdness and some mucus every so often, my stools are faily normal, sometimes softer, sometimes harder (once they were pencil like). I keep all my food down.  The blood is bright and fresh. (Though I'm trying to remember whether I did see some darker blood in twinned with my stool some time ago).

There has also been an episode about perhaps two years ago when I did have terrible consipitation and I felt a rip. (Sorry for the TMI but this is posted annonymously so it's all ok!) From then, the pooping was very painful with streaks of blood each time, but that has now subsided to occasional spots on the toilet paper (apart from Sunday and one other time).

I am also remembering a time about two months back, two hours before my period started, when I had a bout of serious illness. I remember collapsing on the toilet with hot sweats, then cold sweats, vommiting bile, diarrhea, gonig in and out of conciousness and severe stomach cramps (VERY PAINFUL). I wonder wether this was triggered by my change in period hormones or whether this is related to the bleeding. I almost called defeat and called the abulance, but it subsisded very quickly (after two hours) and I spent the next two days recovering. This never happened again. 

In summary, I've had some of the symptoms but at different intermmittent times throughout the past few months, and they have not been consisitent. I am very nervous between now and the sigmoidoscopy, the surgeons just wanted to make sure there was nothing strange going on, they made it clear the only reason they didnt keep me in was because COVID-19 was going around. I am worried that they made it an urgent sigmoidoscopy. At this rate I will put down recent weight loss a a symptom with all the worrying I'm doing. I'm particularly worried as my Mother died from breast cancer and I've seen the journey people make when they are diagnosed, it is not a fate I would wish on anyone. 

I will update you all when I go through the procedure, but any words of wisdom or reaasurance would be appreciated.