Hi,

So I don't really know where to begin. I started feeling unwell back in august 2020. I've been going to my GP pretty much every other week with not feeling well. I started with chills in august along with night sweats, unexplained bruising, low iron, pain under my armpits and then in December I started with spinal and rib cage pain (literally feels like someone is hammering at my spine sometimes). They weren't even bothered by that, they said they could potentially refer me for physio if it doesn't improve.  I feel like my doctors have failed me, they kept checking my bloods but they were normal and they didn't make any referrals even though I'm so cold all of the time that I sit in front of a heater all day. In fact, they made a referral for anxiety. 

Long story short, I found a lump in my breast over a week ago.. I didn't even want to go to the doctors because I was so used to being dismissed but I did anyway. On route there, I was thinking of ways I could apologise for wasting their time again. When she was checking me over, she found another concerning lump and sat me down. I'm under 30 (27). I have BC at both sides of my family, started my periods at the age of 10 and had a baby a year ago. She said they don't usually urgently refer people under 30 but based on what she's found, she has to. 

My appointment came through and it's on Saturday. I feel so scared. I just know I haven't felt well since august and I'm freaking out that the spinal pain is related although I can't figure out if I had this same pain during pregnancy so it could be related to that :( I have a one year old baby and I'm petrified. I've gone through other serious illness before but nothing has hit as hard as this now I have a baby. I'm so upset about having to go to the appointment on my own too.