Hi all, 

after months and months of waiting I finally have an appointment for a colonoscopy and endoscopy. I'm scheduled to have it on the 12th of April but it might be pushed back till the 19th of April but this will be confirmed hopefully soon enough.  I feel very relieved that I finally have an appointment made as I have spent the last few months so worried and finally I'm going to get some answers. To be brief, my symptoms since august have been passing small amounts of flat poop or having loose bowel movement. At the beginning I also had pain and a small bit of blood so I passed it off as a fissure due to my age (23), but the appearance of my stool never returned to normal and it's been 8 months. I just don't understand why my stool would be flat unless there is a growth causing it to look like that and it terrifies me.
 

I also found out today that I have an appointment for an ultrasound on my neck next Tuesday (the 23rd of March). This was because I went to the doctors 2 years ago because of a large hard lump on the side of my neck. My bloods were taken and I was told that it wasn't anything serious. It always played at the back of my mind and I definitely suffer with health anxiety so when I started experiencing these strange bowel symptoms I also began to worry again about the lump on my neck. After feeling around I noticed that there were also 2 smaller hard lumps. I'm not sure if they were always there and I was so focused on the big lump or if they have appeared over the last 2 years and I'm only noticing now. So I went back to my gp and he referred me for an ultrasound. 
 

I am feeling so incredibly overwhelmed and stressed about not  only having to deal with my fears regarding the results of my colonoscopy next month but also the results of my ultrasound. I keep telling myself that there is an unlikely probability that I have lymphoma AND colon cancer but my health anxiety just won't shut up telling me that I may have tumors in both areas of my body. 
 

The next few weeks are going to be really difficult for me so I'm just posting this in the hopes that someone whose been through a similar situation (ie has had an ultrasound or colonoscopy) and knows how scary the waiting can be or somebody whose is also currently going through the same thing as me and is waiting for appointments with awful anticipation. Any advice or experience with this would be greatly appreciated. I just feel so completely in the dark. I'm only 23 years old and the fear is taking over my life. I just hope and pray that this time next month I can finally stop worrying about these two strange ailments that have taken over my life for nearly 3 years but my anxiety prevents me from being optimistic. Please help