Hi there,

I initally found a small, sort of tiny pea mass just above my breast (axillary area) which I went to my GP about on the 1st of March.

She felt the mass, took my information on previous family history (GM currently under going treatment for TNCB triple negative), lost nearly 5 kilos, always tired etc.

I thought most of these linked to being a FTM and breastfeeding my daughter. Although I underwent some blood tests about 6 months ago for similar and being really itchy to the point I was leaving pin *** marks under my skin.

At the time of examination she also felt a few lumps in my neck and one quite big one in my jaw. 

She was obviously a bit concerned and said that my symptoms alongside the lumps need checking out ASAP and booked for an urgent referral to the breast clinic and a blood test which I'm having Monday.

My appointment for the breast clinic was yesterday, but, for a telephone consultation, I spoke to the doctor who listened to all my concerns but himself sounded relatively concerned also, he took all my history and said about booking in for a scan, at the appointment they'll book in for another and they'll go from there with an appropriate course of action. 

Im absolutely petrified, I have this gut wrenching feeling after the phone call and I just feel somethings up. 

I then stupidly looked online and I'm now just concerned, I have had no recent infections, coughs cold, I'm currently BFing but never had mastitis or blocked ducts and the lumps gradually gotten bigger that my partner and i can see it on the tissue. 

Im freaking it out, I so wish the appointment as face to face and it could of potentially been done there and then without all this extra unnecessary wait. 

I feel so fed up and deflated.

Im not sure what the purpose of this post is but if possible I'd appreciate some tips on how to get though the diagnosis period and coming to terms with if it is cancer. 

Thank you