Im only young not even in my twenties yet and for about a week I have developed quite bad anxiety
just a back story I worked on some demo project for a few months and on and off inhaled silica dust without respirator
I did learn quickly but maybe not quick enough to always wear a respirator. Anyways I've read so much about occupational di seases and stories of those getting silicosis it has permanently engraved in my mind. I made a terrible mistake in my life and I didnt think this would be how I die. This has been all I have been thinking off. Fortunately I have been able to sleep reasonably well actually but at times I just wake up and Cancer comes to my mind, all day everyday eating, cleaning, walking thats all I think about is cancer and how my life is probably going to be tipped on its head in the next 10 years time. That itself has been the biggest part is that symptoms of silicosis might not show for 5-10 years meaning Im potentially a ticking time bomb ready to explode. Just when?. This lockdown has made things also extremely difficult. Being in the house alone constantly dwelling on it having severe regret I just am finding it so difficult. I just wish I wore that respirator.

So has anyone experienced health anxiety like I am at the moment? and how did you cope?
I dont want to submit myself to the doctors because family will wonder why and anyways I doubt
anything will show after few months in an xray