Hi there

i feel your anxiety. I am in exactly the same boat. Went to GP yesterday with golf sized lump in breast discovered after losing weight. I have been fast tracked but now waiting. Feel sick with worry. Trying just to keep myself busy. Like you not looking  forward to going to clinic on my own but I understand why with Covid etc.  The not knowing and waiting is the worst. Sending hug and support to you. We can do this x

I am in the same position. Got a referral on Thursday from the clinic nurse and on a two week wait after finding a pea size lump.  Been so busy at work this is the first time I've actually sat down and thought about it, and the more I poke around the bigger this thing is starting to feel (like 2cm+).

sending support to you and everyone else in our boat!

Hi thanks for replying, sorry to hear you've found a lump too -I agree, when I first felt it, thought it was pea sized but the more I feel around it, it's actually more grape sized! Yes it helps knowing we're not alone, & actually talking to someone who know how it feels , sending hugs to you too xxx 

The worst thing is not telling anyone apart from husband and trying to put on a happy face as usual. I am a full time carer for my 15 year old daughter who has been housebound for 2 years with ME/CFS. This is my main fear not being able to still care for her. I am not telling her until there is anything to know and I am trying to keep calm but then every know and again I am overcome with that pit feeling. Trying not to let my brain race ahead of things xx

It's like you are reading my mind! I know that feeling exactly- I haven't told my two sons & am not going to unless it's bad news - one really struggles with his mental health & has just got back on track & I really don't want to upset his world to the point I've even thought can I not tell him ever but no that's not realistic. I am also a carer for my husband & that's my worry - how will I do it dealing with bruises at the same time? But I know if it comes to it we will all cope & get through it together somehow & I have to keep positive as this worry could all be for nothing. It is so hard when no-one else knows & now I'm seeing cancer everywhere too - you're not alone hun, I'm with you & there are lots of others who we don't know about feeling the same right now - take care, let's keep busy, keep doing little things we love to cheer ourselves up & the worst part which is waiting will come to an end soon xxxx 

Hi I know exactly how your feeling I have an appointment on weds 10th and can,t think about anything else good luck for thursday 

Hi Scorpio, Kimg, Fngloon and Maggiemac,

A very warm welcome to our forum, although I'm sorry to hear why you've all joined. Waiting to be seen is always a scary time. It is an emotional rollercoaster when our minds tend to play all sorts of tricks on us by going into overdrive. Let me assure you that this is perfectly normal, as are the copious tears. 

The majority of people referred to the breast clinic do not have breast cancer - only 1 person in every 8 referred will get a cancer diagnosis. There are also a number of different types of breast cancer and some are more aggressive than others. Believe it or not, irrespective of the outcomes, you will feel better once you know what you are dealing with. Treatments have made great strides in recent years and even if unfortunate enough to get that diagnosis that we all dread, just remember that many are now living with breast cancer, rather than dying with it. 

It sounds as if some of you are already being kept busy with caring responsibilities. I have had 2 bouts of breast cancer in the past 11 years and was concerned for my family when first diagnosed. Since then, I have seen my children finish school, go to university, graduate, find gainful employment, marry and have families of their own. I still lead a busy and fulfilled life. 

Attending the clinic alone is a bit daunting, but the staff in these clinics are very sympathetic and understanding. You are unlikely to get a diagnosis until your second appointment and, many clinics will allow you to bring someone with you when you get your results.

You are all doing the right thing in keeping busy to help pass the time. Also, whatever you do, try to keep away from the internet until you have a definite diagnosis, as this will only scare you further. Just remember that it isn't cancer until you're told that it's cancer. It is difficult trying to keep your predicaments to yourselves until you know more. Most people do this and don't tell family and friends until they know for sure.

Do please keep in touch and let us know how you all get on. We are always here for you.

Kind regards,

Jolamine xx

Thanks jolamine for the reply at this time of the morning as you can see I can,t sleep thinking about the appointment it's the not knowing

Hi Maggiemac,

You are so right. Fear of the unknown is a big factor and there are so many unknowns at this stage that we all get into a state.  Fortunately, you don't hae much longer to wait for your appointment and, then hopefully your sleep patterns will return to normal..

Kind regards,
Jolamine xx