Hi girls,

im in a similar situation. Fount a lump three weeks ago finally braved the doctors last Monday by Thursday I got a letter from the breast clinic and got my appointment on the 3rd March (Wednesday). It's all happening all to fast for my little brain to function it all! I'm 30 in July and a single mum of two! I'm terrified what Wednesday is going to bring and have little crying episodes every night once kids are asleep! It's draining and I'm just hoping I get good news. Not sure how I will react if not ‍♀️ Xxx

Hi emmalou just wondered how you got on yesterday, hope it went as well as it could have? 
 

I have my appointment on Wednesday 10th March, feel so sick it's all I can think about. No idea how I'm going to get through these next 6 days. 
x

Hi emmalou just wondered how you got on yesterday, hope it went as well as it could have? 
 

I have my appointment on Wednesday 10th March, feel so sick it's all I can think about. No idea how I'm going to get through these next 6 days. 
x

Hi ladies,

I've literally just returned from my second visit to the breast clinic - both times Ive been fine (first time fibroadenomas, this time glandular tissue) and just wanted to reassure you that the vast majority of breast clinic referrals end well, particularly when you are young. The smaller number of positive stories on here dont reflect the true number in real life because many people probably just move on with their lives once they've got the all clear but as I know that awful anxiety too well I thought I'd just reach out. I was an emotional wreck the first time round. I ran every single worst possible scenario over and over and over in my head. I sought out every one of the worst stories I could find and cried over the saddest. This despite knowing several people who HAVE had breast cancer, HAVE been treated, and are out living their perfectly normal long lives. It's completely natural to ignore any reassuring words and focus on the worst but it won't do you any favours for your mental or physical health.

I still very much worried this time round, but I did manage to restrain myself from drowning the kids in my hysterical snot and tears this time. 

My advice would be try and immerse yourself in anything that might take your mind off it - a run, cheesy Netflix shows, a hot Bath. It doesn't help with lockdown piling on the pressure but just do anything that doesn't involve your phone or Google!

also if the doctors have said they don't think it's anything sinister, try your best to believe them. Remember they have felt hundreds if not thousands of boobies, you've only had your own to worry over.

and also be reassured that you've done the most sensible thing possible being checked out. 

I really hope everything goes well for you all, and that you find a way to cope over the next few days of waiting. X

Hi Jessie, 

You are an angel, these are exactly the things I need to be hearing right now. 
I'm really happy you're okay especially having to go twice! 
What you say is exactly what I've been doing, I automatically think the worst and have the worst case scenarios in my head of when they're telling me my results. My husband told me off the other day because he caught me staring at our son and that he knew what I was doing, he was right I was imagining not being there for him to see him grow up, trying to visualise every inch of detail in his face. Ive been trying to shove everything to the back of my mind and to deal with it when the time comes but every so often the thoughts threaten and I've just got this constant heavy sickness in my stomach but I know I have to keep positive! 

I can't thank you enough for your advice this has really helped, whenever I feel the horribleness brewing in my head again I'll be sure to re-read your post and remain positive! I will be sure to update when I know :) xx

Hi [@btroman16]‍ 

I am also in a similar position..

I am 34, had pain in left breast for a number of weeks.. thought nothing of it really until the pain started to be a sharp pain behind my nipple and under my arm. I then had some discharge from my nipple.

I booked straight away to see my GP, he couldnt feel any lumps but sent me for an urgent referral anyway 

Although urgent I would have been waiting 3-8 weeks so I made a decision to go private .. I had my appt in the breast clinic 4 days later.

Again the consultant could not feel any lumps etc. but did notice colour change to my nipple. He wanted me to have a mammogram and ultrasound.

So Tues this week I had a mammogram and ultrasound, she confirmed tissue difference in the left breast I was having trouble with but also said something has shown "suspicious" in the right.

I had 4 biopsies there and then and was told to come back to see consultant next week in person not a phone appt.

Like you I am absolutely up the walls!!!

The waiting is torture.

Trying to keep busy at home in work etc. but like everyone else my mind is in overdrive!! 

Hi Marlee 

oh gosh I'm so sorry to hear that, I don't blame you for going private at all, that would've been such a long wait and like you said the waiting is torturous. 

I really don't like when they use those terms, I know they don't know for sure at the moment but what does suspicious mean!? I know it's hard for them to say anything else but all that does is make us worry what on earth it could be. 
Next week you should definitely have your answer and I've everything crossed for you, I know it's easier said than done and I'm trying to do it myself but we've got this and whatever it is we will get through it! Please will you let us know! Xx

[@btroman16]‍ 

thanks a mil for reply.

of course I will keep you updated x