Hi everyone 

I have my colposcopy on Thursday but today I went for a covid swab , I had to go where I would for the appointment, I am now so worried it's really and petrified I'm worried it will hurt or they will see things and think oh my god ‍♀️ I don't think I'm going to be able to take myself into that hospital I avoid doc and hospital anyway as I have terrible fear of these places and the unknown 

I tell myself it's just like an in-depth smear - but it's what they find and if I need treatment or maybe it Mayb the start of bad things to happen to me or I will end up need to be out to sleep which I don't want I have terrible bad luck an nothing ever seems that straight forward for me - if they said all I need to do is have this lol smear done again and have a look potentially burn some bad cells away and that will b it then I would b fine with that but know one knows until they have seen and I'm worried that I will b that nervous the nurse will loose paitence with me an not be supportive