Hi 

I have no one to talk about how I am feeling. Last year after sex I bled for 10 weeks and had various colours of discharge. By week 6 I seen my gp and she gave me a internal said she couldn't feel anything and referred me as urgent to gynaecology . Gynaecology changed it to non urgent by the time my appointment was due the bleeding had stopped and I cancelled my appointment. My relationship ended so I didn't Have sex again 

Ocassionly after this I had the odd discharge between periods, anyway I have had a pain around my c section scar what comes and goes. I met someone knew and the twice after we have had sex I have been bleeding after it. 12 days on and I have brown discharge since. 
 

i plucked up the courage to contact my doctors surgery the doctor I spoke to on the phone was vile to me speaking to me like a child and making me feel like I'm going to die as I have not had a smear test in 11 years. I know this is very silly of me but I have crippling anxiety and do not cope well. Anyway I have an appointment with her next week to examine me I am terrified that she will hurt me I haven't slept right for the last two nights and have loss of appetite. It's putting me off going. 
 

I am terrified I'm going to die and I know it's my fault but anxiety will not rationalise my stupidity. 
 

sarah