I literally could of written this. I'm twenty years older than you but also suffer from health anxiety. I finally spoke to me gp about who put me on antidepressants and referred me to therapy. The antidepressants help but are not an easy fix so I can't wait to start the therapy to get it under control. I also panic with any change in my body, for example my knee is a bit sore at the moment and it's worrying me so much! I would suggest speaking to your GP because it's hard to get health anxiety under control on your own. Also speak to your parents or whoever is your guardian. Just speaking to those closest to you can make a massive change!

I can understand your Mum not wanting you to go on antidepressants but you could get support in other ways from your GP. I know your Mum is saying your fine but you're clearly not because you're so anxious which is an illness at the end of the day. You need to be really honest with her, maybe even write it down and tell her that you need help and support because you're really struggling.

I want to speak to a doctor but I'm absolutely petrified that they will tell me there is something wrong with me and that because I have left it too long I'm going to die and I can't get that out of my head, it's also been worse recently as my dad moved over seas and it felt like the loss of a parent and having no routine because of no school is leaving me time to constantly think about things that can go wrong and it scares me how much can go wrong