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Hi . Wasn't sure about joining. Cancer has been a part of my life for the last 30yrs. I lost my husband 3yrs on March 28th . This week 3 yrs ago he went into the hospice for his first time . I didnt think he would be coming home but he did after a 2 week stay and gave us a few more weeks before his final stay. Anyway I do a vlog which I've done from the first day of his last visit . I was only going to do for a year but carried on . I talk to people about cancer grief and just anything . Well as you see I do chat sorry . Nervous. Anyway a week ago I found a lump . I tried to ignore and convince myself it wasn't real . I work at a gps so got the nurse to check . Its real . Cut to next part im booked in to see breast clinic on 24th. I havent even been able to walk in the hospital since I lost my husband. I have ra and dont even attend appointments at hospitals I go thru gp. Anyway thats it basically. Im not scared of death in fact it would be perfect if I didnt still have such a young son . He still needs his mum and im terrified of him having to go thru it all again . Im sure its nothing but I must admit having a little knowledge doesnt help. X thanks for listening