Wide awake worried sick

2 weeks ago I saw my gp as I have the most horrendous itchy breasts - its driving me mad. The day before I went i noticed a "bruise" looking thing under my right breast.

He said let's send you the hospital to be checked.

Today I have been the hospital I had a mammogram on each side, then told to wait in waiting room as I needed an ultra sound - oh no, I was called in for ultra sound to be told there is a mass in my right brest and they took biopsies. I saw the consultant again on my way out - he told me ill get results in 2 weeks any questions? I was totally in shock as I cant feel anything.

I told my mum I was going (she us my best friend) but not my partner (his mum had to have a mastectomy 3 weeks ago) so didn't want him to worry if there was nothing to worry about.

I've come home and told him he was upset that I'd been through today on my own, he's now worried about me.

I'm lieing here wide awake worried sick about results, my boob is aching from biopsies and my head is spinning with all the what if's and stupidity googled ‍♀️

Feeling very lonely and scared right now  

  • I am sorry to hear about your story; I just want to put this here that you are not alone. 

    I call it the FEAR OF THE UNKNOWN in my diary. I wasn't in that situation 4weeks ago. It's very easy for someone to say it's going to be ok and take things easy. But you are the one going through this but try and take it off your mind once in a while.

    To be honest, it's going to be a very emotional and stressful couple of months but stay positive and be strong. 

    I wish you the very best.

    Ade