Terrified of advanced breast cancer

Hello

I've been reading this forum for weeks and it's been a great comfort. I am waiting for a diagnosis but I am certain I have breast cancer. I am only 28 (29 at the weekend). I have very lumpy breasts anyway and have intermittent pain in the left side which gets worse around my period and mid cycle.  I've always assumed I was too young for anything wrong and as both breast are lumpy (although the left is worse) I put it down to hormones. 
 

I was being investigated for reactive lymp nodes in my neck when I found a large lump in my left armpit, I am sure this was new. Fast forward a couple of weeks and lymph nodes in the same armpit have swollen, I've noticed a lymph node under my collarbone is swollen and I have burning pain in my

breast and nipple. I'm also sure the same nipple is more inverted than the other side but again I wasn't checking before.

I'm convinced I have advanced cancer and it's in my lymph nodes. I spend every moment googling everything and cannot sleep. I am crying constantly and in lockdown alone and I just feel so broken.  I just don't see what else it could be with this combination of symptoms.
 

I have an appointment at the breast clinic next Friday but I don't know how to make it until then, I am a mess.  I am an anxious person anyway and it's horrible!

Any support out there would be so welcomed.

 

thank you xxx

 

 

  • Hi there ...

    I know nothing can take your fear away as we all feel scared waiting for tests and results etc ... it's quite normal .. but just wanted to say .... my first four call backs from mamorgrams over the years.... as I had lumpy boobs too... were all clear .. i had a lump that felt like a flat pebble and was sure it was cancer ... one was a round pea shaped immmovable lump ... and two others as well ... i was panicing each time .. 

    I wish I'd have known 8.5 out of ten lumps are benign... and the younger you are, the odds are even better ..  so if you can rethink your thoughts and keep as busy as poss it will help ...  and even on the rare chance it is ... treatments have come a long way....  there's lots of us living through breast cancer ... 

    So think logically and know it's o.k to feel like you are ... I don't know anyone who doesn't feel emotional waiting for tests or results ... so hold on in there ... Chrissie....