Hi Kay,

I am so sorry to hear you are suffering. It's completely understandable given what's happened. I have had breast cancer (diagnosed in October 2019 and completed treatment by February 2020) but had no symptoms similar to yours. 
 

I just wanted to say hold on. Going to the clinic will help ground you. From there you will know if it's cysts or hormonal or indeed if it's cancer. All I can say is the waiting to know is the worst time. It fills us with dread. Most of us jump to the conclusion we will die soon. I know I did. The day I was told I did have cancer was followed by a surgeon explaining my options on what could be done. No one talked of death or a need to be fearful of it. The treatments are varied and tailor made for us as individuals. I felt much better with a plan of how I was to be treated. You will too though hoping of course it's not cancer treatment you will need.
 

I am sure your little boy will have you for many years to come. Take care. Wishing you all the luck in the world for Monday   
Kebb x 

Hello, 

Thank you for responding to me.

Im sorry to hear about your story. 

I literally feel sick to my stomach with anxiety, I'm honestly so scared I can't stress it enough. Fear is one of the worst feelings to feel. It's more the worry of my 2 year old. My boob keeps getting stabbing pains I'm praying it's just cysts or something. 

My worst fear is that it is breast cancer but its spread. I hoenstly think I'll fall to my knees and ask why. But then again, why anyone!.. And even then, it is what is it it.

I just want to stop crying. Everyone keeps telling me it'll be fine but no one knows that for sure.

I'll let you know the results from Monday whichever the outcome. Thank you, its nice to know someone is here though this awful subject xx 

Hello Kay,

yes please let me know how things go for you. I will think of you over these coming few days and hope that you get the best news on Monday. 
 

Yes you are right. No one can tell you all is well just now. You will only know definites from the medical team. But let's hope it's a hormonal issue. Certainly I never had any pains before diagnosis. 
 

Being scared is absolutely natural. The unknown and the fear it instils in us is very difficult to manage. I am sure each day feels like a week. 
 

Go steady. I am sure many people are rooting for you. 

Kebbs x 
 

Hi Kay,

I am so sorry to hear about your worries and, just wanted to reassure you that this is how many of us feel at this stage. As Kebb, has said, many of us fear the worst at this stage, but fortunately, irrespective of the outcome, things become a lot easier to cope with once you know exactly what you are dealing with.

I know that we cannot be certain at the moment, but try to hold on to the fact that younger women are less likely to get breast cancer than older women. Breast cancer is seldom accompanied by pain and, only 1 person in every 8 referred to the breast clinic will receive a cancer diagnosis. I have had 2 in the past 11 years. Initially I felt exactly like you. I had lost my mum to this terrible disease and was sure that my children would lose me too. 

Treatments have improved so much throughout recent years that I have been fortunate enough to see my children go to university, graduate, marry and have children of their own. This just goes to show that even a positive diagnosis is not the end of the world.

Many of us cry copiously at this stage, so please try not to worry about that - this is a good release valve.

I sincerely hope that all goes well for you on Monday. Don't forget to let us know how you get on and, remember that we are always here for you.

Kind regards,

Jolamine xx

Thank you, I will indeed.. 2 more days .. 

Thank you for understanding .. 

Kay xx

Yes that's true! It's like to me something is there and I want to find out now. For sure the wait is the worst but because yiu just don't know.

In a way from monday at least I know what I have to contend with. I'm hoping it's just cysts but I must admit I don't know much about breast issues. I really don't understand why they don't teach women in schools about this becuase it could save so many peoples lives. 

I would say the lumps are smooth and like giant kidney beans, I believe they move but then I don't know what I'm talking about .. Just have to see. 

I'm sorry to hear about your story but amazing recovery stories to.

Its so scary becuase atm I know 3 people that have it and 4 people that have had it. I have no family history of it if that helps but like anything it has to start somewhere.

I've not cried today but awful thoughts keep going through my head like would I need to do tapes for when my son goes up for his special occasions. I think this is where my anxiety has darkened aswell.

As soon as clarity comes Monday I'm hoping to be a different person than today!...

But then I guess anything shocking moment in life will bring you down, you just need to get back up again. 

Thank you for commenting, I really appreciate the support. You'll be hearing from me Monday, praying its good news. 

Kay xx 

I need to stop googleing different outcomes becuase every time I search anything breast related all it comes up with is breast cancer.

I don't know why Google does this. But anything through life I've done the bad thing and googled and it's always bad.

I always say I'm going to stop .. 

Hi Kay,

Yes, fear of the unknown leads to all sorts of dark places. Just a word of warning, I expected to get an answer at my first visit too, but this seldom happens. In most cases we undergo a few simple tests on our first visit and then have to wait for 1-2 weeks to get the results.

Try to steer clear of consulting 'Dr Google' at the moment, as this will only scare you further and, serves no useful purpose.

The fact that your lumps are smooth and moveable sounds hopeful, as the majority of nasty lumps are fixed and jagged around the edges. I hope that the fact that you were clear 6 months ago, is a good indication too.

Keeping my fingers crossed for you.

Kind regards,

Jolamine xx

Hey everyone!.. 

It's came back all clear  

Thank you being here when I needed you

Xx