Hi everyone

I joined because I didn't really have anyone else to talk to, as it makes me upset speaking to my friends and family who have no idea what I am going through :(

I had an abnormal smear on 14th December (results arrived 29th December) and I was booked in for a colposcopy on the 5th January. It all happened so fast but obviously now I am glad it did!

I went for my colposcopy which I thought would just be an examination, but the consultant who met with me said it was highly likely he would be performing a loop excision (which I hadn't prepared myself for)

After my examination, he came in to perform the procedure as it showed I had CIN3 cells. He said what ever made me go for my smear test (it was my first one aged 35) he was glad I did. He said he couldn't see any cancerous cells which I am obviously taking as a good thing! 

I am now awaiting a letter from the hospital but I am unsure what this letter will tell me, I was in shock at the hospital as I wasn't expecting the procedure so I didn’t really ask. 

I have spent the past week trying not to Google stuff and read much, as I know the letter will tell me all I need to know. 

But my friend keeps asking me if I have heard anything. I politely asked him to stop asking me, as it makes me emotional and overthink things, and i said if I hear anything I will let him know. He told me "he couldn't help that my mind is crazy" (for searching the internet after I am reminded by him of this awful situation) now it may just be my emotional state as to why I got upset, but I don't appreciate being called crazy when I am going through this situation :(

So now I’ve finally finished having a bit of a rant, I was wondering if anyone could tell me what the next steps would be and what my letter will be telling me? Could it be possible all the CIN3 cells weren’t removed and I may need to go back?

Thank you for reading and best wishes to everyone x