hello
i didn't really know what to title this as im sorry, i am 20 years old and i have been waiting for ultrasounds for lumps in my neck for a week (5 more to go!). i noticed around 5 of them about 1cm-3cm big around a month ago on one side of my neck.
since then one has gone down but now i have more in my armpits and groin, they have also spread to the other side of my neck. i was trying to think nothing of it but after several blood tests (which showed no evidence of infection or virus) my gp spoke to me about the possibility of it being a type of cancer and booked me a scan. i am very confused since i am physically well, aside from aching in the effected areas and when i drink alchohol it gets worse (which i've heard is a common thing for lymphoma)
i wouldn't have posted looking for advice usually, but about a month before i found the lumps i had just gotten out of hospital for a suicide attempt and entered recovery for an ED, for the first time in my life i want help and to live happily and this feels like a cruel joke. i feel very scared about what my results are and i was hoping someone could give me advice to not feel so scared about this because i have been unable to work for a while now because of anxiety
i am sorry if this post isn't that serious or not worth posting in the first place
