Hi Anne, 

Happy new year to you! I'm so sorry for what you're going though, it must be very difficult to start the year off this way so I'm sending lots of love. 
 

Your mum seems to have been very reactive in getting everything checked out and I'm so glad to hear that she'll be referred shortly and I've got my fingers crossed for you both  

In regards to how you feel you should be, I think my only advice is that all feelings are valid be it anger, sadness or worry etc. We need to go through the motions of feeling them and it's completely normal to feel them all or even to feel nothing at all. 
 

In March 2020, my mum was diagnosed with bowel cancer and had to undergo chemo and multiple surgeries but thankfully in August she was given the all clear. The day I found out, I cried and then felt very numb almost as if it wasn't happening which made me feel guilty because I felt like I should be constantly sad but that wasn't the case and I think it was my way of coping. All the emotions came once she was given the all clear as before that my main focus was on her. 
 

Give yourself time to feel everything and be kind to yourself. It's a very difficult time and please make sure you have people who are there for you, just to listen if needs be. 
 

Wishing you and your mum all the best! 
Lizzie x

Hi Lizzie,

Happy new year to you as well, and thank you for sending love. I hope this year is going well for you :) was definitely a bit of shock to the start of the year to say the least! although cancer is so so horrible, with the amount of it being in my family, it feels different that it could potentially be in my mum, as she is the closest person to me ever! after my little cry last night I'm feeling positive this morning and have been asking my mum how she is doing and also let her know to update me on any changes she may have.. despite everything I'm feeling okay today :) 

I'm really sorry to hear your mum went through bowel cancer, again this was present in my grandad around 6 years ago now! (He is no longer going in for yearly checkup reviews) I'm glad your mum has managed to get through everything, it sounds like your mum went through an awful lot in a short amount of months but I'm glad to hear she was gave the all clear, and is doing well! 

Thank you for sharing your story and how you felt during your journey with your mum's cancer, it's really appreciated and I couldn't agree more with the fact that whatever emotion you are feeling - it's all completely normal and everyone really does have their own way of coping! I'm really glad that you and your mum got through alll this together too x

best wishes, anne