I have just discovered my surgery has been cancelled - I have a large ovarian mass - unknown if this is cancer. The plan is to have a full hysterectomy, lymph nodes, fat lining and gaulbladder removed. I had been self isolating for 7 days and then on New Year’s Eve was told my operation has been cancelled, No idea when it will happen and No idea what hospital it will take place in.
Devistated by this - I’m outside the number of days for treatment - no idea if this is life threatening or not - no idea when anyone from the hospital will be in contact.
I feel so alone trying to deal with all these feelings of anxiety - my mother and grandmother died in early 50’s of ovarian cancer. I just feel totally out of control, Not sure what I do about work, do I go back -my head is just all over the place and I am now experiencing pain. Emotionally and physically struggling.
Im also finding myself to be really angry - which is so unlike me- especially at people breaking Clovis rules as I feel they are responsible for my lack of surgery..
Any advice tocope with all these unknowns would be appreciated - Thanks