Xmas day and I’m worried sick and googling

So I never thought I'd ever be sitting here on Xmas morning with a 5 year old, worrying and googling non stop about my enlarged lymph nodes in groin. I'm making myself I'll. so last year I started experiencing an ache in my right groin, I was sent to a hernia doctor and they told me I didn't have a hernia. Fast forward to March this year and I found a lump in the right side of my groin. With lockdown I hestitated goin the docs but eventually I went. Whilst waiting for the ultrasound I felt another lump pop up next to it. Anyways had the ultrasound and the first one I found was enlarged at 14mm (they said if it was 15mm or more then they start worrying). The other lump was very small they said. The results report to my GP said they were reactive nodes (possibly in response to shaving). However my gran had lymphoma in her groin and so to be sure they referred me to haematology. They called me and said they were happy not to see me but to keep an eye on them. So last few weeks the second lump I found has gotten bigger. I went back to haematology and they are sending me for another ultrasound to see if they have actually gone bigger. I have constant pressure and aching in that lump area and the lumps are hard (which according to google mean they are more likely to be malignent). As to other symptoms, I've had loose stools for a year too which I've had colonoscopies for. I get occasional nigjt sweats but not drenching. The main thing is these two lymph nodes and the constant ache in my groin. I feel like I know something is wrong and google is making me worse. Has anyone had enlarged lymph nodes and they have been found to be ok?

  • Worry and anxiety ruining my life. This time I think I have breast cancer. My son was seriously  injured in a car crash in October. Since getting home in November I have been convinced I have breast cancer. I have a warm sensation in one breast and it’s tender and sore. One breast bigger than other - the sore one- but may have been like that before. Problems sleeping and feel permanently worried and anxious. Ruining everything! Help! 

  • You're not alone don't worry. We're here with you. I'm doing the same. It's eating me up with worry every second of every day. 

     

    Enlarged nodes in neck & under jaw, Under my ear too. 

    Doc says they're reactive.

     

    Soft lump thing on back which doc says is a sebaceous cyst (it was big and red previously with pus. Had under armpit too, not too worried about these.

    Feel like I've lost weight too, haven't weighed myself in years but pretty adamant I was 11stone, currently just under 10 stone. 

     

    Not making much saliva at all and having to constantly drink water far more than usual. 

    My dad died this year (murdered) so I've been v depressed and haven't taken care of myself or my teeth too much and have developed gum disease & have an impacted wisdom tooth which I think has been very infected. 

     

    All that's on my mind is cancer tho. Can't get the thought out of my head, anxiety attacks daily. It's so horrible isn't it :( :( 

  • It's horrible isn't it! Every symptom I get I'm like this is bad and I start googling and I know it's stupid googling but it's the only time I can find answers but unfortunately they aren't the answers I want to hear. 
     

    have you seen anyone about your concerns? If not, you should speak with your doctor 

  • Yeah I'm the same, docs said mine was reactive in sept but I don't believe they are because I'm having so much aching in that area. They don't hurt to touch but my groin aches all day. I've had loose stools for a year and I get breathless which are all signs of something wrong. It's never ending the worry 

  • Yeah, mine was adamant they are reactive but it's so hard to feel content with that answer. I have blood tests on the 6th Jan.  Googling all the time ain't helping at all, just making me feel worse and worse cause everything leads to cancer.  Sick of the panic and anxiety attacks :( 

     

    Breathless when you're busy or just sitting there etc? Maybe it's an anxiety thing? 

  • Breathless when just sitting down but not all the time. I have POTS too which causes breathlessness but you can't help but link them all when u see something bad that resembles ur symptoms can you. I've had blood tests but they say sometimes even someone with anything bad can still have normal bloods so that made me worse 

  • I'm guilty of googling since I was diagnosed with liver cancer last February. It's been over a year now. two procedures later neither went that well. I'm at that stage now were I feel or felt at ease since my options now are a liver resection, or to be put on a transplant list. Because I have a badly scarred liver ( cirrhosis ). it says resection would be discounted. So that leaves being put on a transplant list. I went to discuse the two options, rightly or wrongly I was asked what I would prefer. resection or transplant. transplant option. As I said wrightly or wrongly I went for the option that carried the highest risk. As I lost my wife to aggressive cancer. and thought if it was to go wrong then I'll be with my wife.

    I'm sat here googling pros and cons for transplantation. there was a section that said what could rule me out of having the transplant.  dam it.  it said diabetes and being obese. both of which I am.

    Do not get me wrong I'm not on a downer after reading it. as it's google. but I have been on a MacMillan site  and the life expectancy with a liver transplant is over five years were as 70% and 30%   won't last more than five years. I have to play the hand I was dealt,  So why do I feel I'm holding a pair of duces againsy a pair of aces. I hate google ;-))