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justlookingforsomehelp
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Hi, 

I've been lurking on this website for a month now and I figured this would be the best place for support and advice. 
just some bg info, in 2018 I went for my first breast ultrasound which showed a 2cm fibroadenoma, they said it's best to just leave it alone, I was 19 at the time. I also had an inverted nipple - it's always been like that and my other nipple has always been flat. 
I gave birth January of this year & have recently got onto the nexplanon implant in September. I didn't breastfeed I pumped for 1 month post birth and pumped again when he was 3 months until he turned 5 months.

I recently have felt changes in my breast  my GP can't feel a lump but can feel thickening. Lower outer quadrant right breast and I have similar "glandular" is the word she used to describe it on the left side. Its definitely more on the left than the right side so she referred me to the clinic. My appointment is on Wednesday I'm feeling so so nervous. I'm normally so good with attending things alone but this time I'd give anything to have my husband hold my hand abs support me there.

the thing I'm confused about is if I pinch my breast I can feel the thicker tissue when stood. However, if I raise my arm and feel (the way you're supposed to examine them) using the flats of my fingers I can't feel much other than lumpy bean bag / rice pudding like texture (sorry TMI)

please could someone with a bit more knowledge help to ease my nerves. This worry has been consuming me for weeks. 
 

I also can no longer feel my fibroadenoma in the right breast. Coukd it have disappeared and left scar tissue?! If that makes any sense at all. 
 

any kind words or any replies would be so so appreciated!

 

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    Hey, 

    So sorry to hear you're going through this. I'm also waiting to see the breast clinic on weds so can totally understand the worry and stress this must be causing, anxious too about attending alone. So I don't have any solution but just to say you're not alone.
     

    I know it's really hard not to, but do try not to poke and prod... I've been doing it incessantly since last week when my GP Said she could find a lump and now I'm convinced I've found all kinds of other problems with my boobs, driving myself sick with worry and really we won't know anything until we've seen a specialist. The waiting I think can be the hardest thing and it's natural to think the worst. Let me know how you get on and I hope you manage to distract yourself with something nice over the next day or so (easier said than done, I know!). Xx

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    Hi 

    thanks for replying 

    Can you feel your lump with your arm raised up? 

  • Offline in reply to justlookingforsomehelp

    I can't really feel a lump where the GP said, more a lot of thickened tissue, but if I raise my arm it seems to go away. I've also had a tender armpit there for months. 
     However I've noticed a lump on the other breast since, which feels different depending what position I'm in. I think everyone's breasts will be made up differently so only the docs can really tell you what's going on. I'll keep my fingers crossed for you on weds- it's so awful waiting and wondering 'what if'. 
    X 

  • Offline in reply to asilw

    It really is isn't it! 
    good luck for your apt too!

    I think I totally understand what you're saying about the thickened tissue my GP said the same. 
    my thickened tissue is also mirrored into my other breast which is confusing me. It's definitely more thicker on the right side though which worries me..

     

    and you're right, everyone's different I guess only a doctor would be able to tell / ultrasound. 
    I'm feeling worried sick. I keep crying looking at my baby worrying my little 10 month old and husband will be left without me.. 

    I pray we both get the results we want & we are cancer free! 

  • Offline in reply to justlookingforsomehelp

    I know dense tissue is very common so hopefully it will just be that- but if it is anything more, you'll be in the right place to get it sorted. I'm a bit older than you (in my 30s) but we're both very young.

    I won't tell you not to worry because I've been going crazy this week, but try and distract yourself as best you can- only one more day to go and hopefully you will have some peace of mind and able to celebrate with your lovely baby and husband :) let me know how it goes xx

  • Offline in reply to asilw

    That was such a positive message

    i really hope it goes well for you too! In a way it can't come sooner but I'm dreading it so much too. It's awful isn't it. I hope it's nothing & I can leave the hospital feeling the weight off my shoulders. It's been an awful 3 weeks full of panic attacks and so much anxiety. I even rang the ward up praying they'd allow someone to come with me because of this anxiety. Just hope I don't end up having a panic attack there and then. 

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