Hello Mahem and weclcome to Cancer Chat.

I'm sorry you could potentially be dealing with another cancer diagnosis but fingers crossed this will not be the case.

Many of our members have been in this situation so will definitely understand the thoughts and feelings you're contending with at the moment and I'm sure you'll receive some support and advice from them soon.

We're thinking of you Mahem and sending our strength and support your way.

Kind regards,

Steph, Cancer Chat Moderator

Thank you ( just checked my first message and so many spelling mistakes shows I was typing in haste and panic!!) 

I'm more calmer a few days post biopsies and aware I just need to wait for results. Still only my husband knows which makes me feel guilty as my two children aged 19 & 23 are blissfully unaware and enjoying their time off at home from uni and work.  

I'm still praying for a little miracle but realise I do not have the best odds. 

Will let you know how things go

Thank you for your kind words and support x

Hi Mahem 

Sorry to hear that I was diagnosed in 2005, right breast, had mastectomy, chemo, and radiation, hormone treatment. Had annual mammogram in July and they saw something suspicious, had biopsy a few weeks after and was diagnosed with early breast cancer in left breast. Could have had lumpectomy but I chose mastectomy myself, I wasn't taking any chances. Its hard to describe emotions and feelings,. I know it's difficult waiting on results but at least you have biopsy done, and it maybe nothing. Let me k ow how u get on

Hi Mayhem,

I am so sorry to hear about your current situation. I had a lumpectomy of my right breast 11 years ago and was told that I had a rare form of cancer, but that it was not a very aggressive cancer and that it was only grade 1. Within 6 months I found a larger lump in my left breast. Like you, I was told that it was highly suspicious after having a mammogram, ultrasound and a number of biopsies. I had 2 young teenage children at the time. Fortunately, when the biopsy results cane back, the lump was benign. 

Forward a further 6 months and I discovered another lump in my original breast, My surgeon was again convinced that this didn't look good and, this time I wasn't so lucky. I Had a double mastectomy 10 years ago. This was still a primary cancer of the same type and grade. Now 10 years further along I have developed a number of symptoms and am waiting to see my consultant again. I know just how frightening the waiting time is, but please try and steer clear of consulting 'Dr Google'. Much of the information provided by him is inaccurate, poorly researched and out of date and will only serve to scare you further. 

Even if the worst should come to pass, your family are older now and will be able to support you through it all this time. My children were young teenagers when I was first diagnosed, but they have been a great support from the start, as has my husband. The hardest thing to do is to try and put a positive slant on all this. You've found the lump and are getting it attended to. You survived it last time and will do again. We all need positivity if we are to get through these challenges that life throws at us and I sincerely hope that you find yours again. One things for certain. You'll come out of this a stronger person!

Please keep in touch and let us know what your results are. We are always here for you.

Kind regards,

Jolamine xx

Thank you for making time to post a message xx I guess it has come out of the blue and ironically at the same time of year as before. It has been such a sad year already losing my brother who was a kind and amazing man reinforces how life can be fragile x Strangly I'm feeling calm as I wait for results but it will be so tough to face treatment all over again x sorry to hear you had to face this journey again and hope you are ok xxx

Hi thank you for your kind and positive words xx so sorry that you are having a worrying time again. I guess I thought so many years down the line I wouldn't face this journey again. I'm sure my children will give me great support BUT you always want to make their lives happy without worries. Last time when they were so small I could hide so much from them and give them small bits of info this time I will need to tell them everything as they will have so many questions x

Hi Mahem

Its surreal because of covid it makes everything more scarey. Iv only had my daughter to help me but she works full-time, and one other friend who drove me to appointments, I live in Ireland and I was worried about going to hospital and would it be safe but it was fine. Loads of precautions in place, I was in for 8 nights, and no visitors allowed but I made friends with other ladies in there. Unless someone has personally going through this it's so hard to explain what it all feels like but it's good to chat here. It does take a lot out of you, and I don't even think iv begun to process that I have a second diagnosis but I'll deal with that down the road. The good thing is your now going to b looked after, get treatment and recover again with the help of your family, keep in touch xx