I'm so afraid.

I noticed a lump in my right breast two weeks ago. It is a couple of centimetres long, quite squashy, and can be moved around easily. I've got no other alarming symptoms such as discharge, rash, nothing going on with my armpit, no weight loss. I'm feeling healthy and fit. I saw a doctor straight away and she agreed that is is squashy and didn't seem to find anything else sinister. She told me "It doesn't feel quite like a cyst. I suspect it could be a fibroadenoma". She's referred me to the breast clinic and said it isn't an urgent case, it's to have it checked out and confirmed so I'd probably hear from them in maybe 4 weeks or so. I did feel reassured by her and was managing to not worry too much. 

My appointment letter arrived last week with an appointment for next Monday (14th), which sort of freaked me out a bit. I know I should be glad to have it checked sooner than anticipated,  but I feel like a quicker appointment means there's something wrong. I've been feeling worried and anxious all week. Then last night i found a tiny, pea-sized squishy lump on my collarbone, by my shoulder. I think it could just be a fatty lump type of thing. I do have one of those on my arm that was checked out a year ago. However, with the breast thing going on too I've terrified myself with the idea that it's a lymph node thing and I've got cancer that's spreading. I'm so frightened and panicky I barely slept last night, I'm constantly shaking and keep bursting into tears. I don't know how I'm going to function for the next week.

  • I'm in such a similar situation. I saw GP on Mon 30th Nov, she referred me to breast clinic & I received an appointment later that day for Mon 14th. I've also got a rubbery lump on my shoulder (same side as breast concern) & forgot to mention it to the GP!! The nearer it gets to 14th, the more anxious I feel, having to go alone also makes it feel more scary. Maybe we can mssg each other for support? xx

  • Thank you for taking the time to reply to my panicky post. I'm a terrible worrier anyway, and all of this is a nightmare. I'm trying to be reasonable and tell myself that a tiny, pea-sized lump on top of my shoulder can't be connected with my breast lump. Not when I've got no swollen lymph nodes anywhere and I do already have a history of fatty lump development. I'm not all that good at being calm and reasonable though.

    I would like to exchange messages with you to support each other through this horrible situation. I'm also having to go to the clinic by myself. It does make it more scary, doesn't it? Did your GP say anything about what she thought your breast lump could be? I'm hoping that we can both be fortunate enough to have these 'benign tumors' I keep reading about. I should really stop torturing myself with Google.

  • Hi Gemma, much as I'm a worried mess right now, please try to be reassured that it's probably all perfectly normal. I was very calm initially, but now thinking that this is my 3rd referral (previous were well over 10 yrs ago) & I'm over 50 & this lump feels very different. GP didn't say anything regarding her thoughts, just confirmed straight away that she could feel what I could, as I was hoping she'd say I was imagining it!

    The thought of being in the clinic for hours next Mon on our own is not good, but we can support each other & compare boob examination stories What time is your appt? 

     

  • It's kind of you to try to reassure me when you're so worried yourself. Thank you.

    My appointment is at 3.15pm. When is yours?

  • Mine's at 9.55am, we won't be in clinics at the same time, but I'll be here for you when you're at your appt xx

  • And I'll be here to support you when you're in yours. If you need to talk to someone I'm here. xx