Hello Jaq12,

                     l can really appreciate your post and your feelings of being discarded,what you are going through is difficult in normal times,but feels more brutal and remote in the current situation.Having trod this path some six years previously,l can honestly say opportunities to meet a consultant are limited,and if you are looking for sympathy and your fevered brow stroked by them,then you are seriously off target, since they will be far too busy fighting the next fire blazing into another patients life.l met mine pre op,he met me again as he opened me up and practised what his skills are best focused upon,the immediate saving of lives.After that its handed over to members of his MDT team,who encompass such a wide range of specialised skills which are much more empathatic towards the recovery of the patient and their needs, who in their own areas of expertise are just as important to ensuring that life saved is nurtured back to full health.l was impressed by the breadth of of inclusion to agencies l had previously regarded as being on the fringe,and l certainly became aware that Cancer care is very inclusive and wide ranging.

l do not know if you have any dealings with your local Maggies centre, but l cannot speak highly enough about them,they helped me tremendously with my post op mental state and played a great part in assisting me to find my way back to the life and state of mind l enjoyed before my insidious visitor decided to spoil my party.if you able ,please see for yourself. l cannot believe you have been given up on, and one thing l am sure about is that is a statement that could never be levelled at this organisation.

 Its good that you have found this forum,because you will always find others that know the fears,doubts and worries that you are experiencing,and it is hopefully reassuring for you to know they will never give up on you either.l am sorry this post arrives later than l would have liked,believe it or not l typed it out twice in early hours of this morning,and on both times managed to hit the wrong button at completion and delete it, its a combination of needing sleep,stupidity,clumsiness and the aftereffects of chemo brain.l write this because l did not want you to feel like an afterthought,you and all those that are going through the distress of this affliction are very important,and very special people,

                                                                                                                   take care of yourself,

                                                                                                                                                       David

PS --if you read this it means l finally managed to hit the right button,or at least not the wrong one!!!!!!