Hi I'm not sure i should be in this group. My partner went for a ct scan and dr has told him it could be bowel cancer and he has to wait for an appointment for a camera to do more investigation.  I feel like my world has fallen apart and I'm going to lose the only person I have ever loved. I watched my mom die of overian cancer and it destroyed me. So worried that my partner has got cancer and he is going to die. The waiting is just the worst. I try to be strong but just break down in tears thinking of life without him.  I don't know what to do for the best.