Hi so sorry to read this. I have just posted my own post still waiting for my appointment at the breast clinic. I really feel for you with your young children. Mine are 8, 6, and 6 months. 
 

They haven't had the results of your biopsy back then? So they don't know whether or not it is cancer?

I know it is easier said than done but try to stay positive.

sending a hug!

Thank you so much for replying,

I just keep running through all the conversations with the different people last Saturday.

I've always been able to pick up on people's body language and honestly I'm not being dramatic, I could sense it wasn't good just by their conversation, tone, everything about it.

all of them at the hospital were amazing, so so lovely but I just felt something.

when, in my head I was going there to be told that it's Lymph nodes, cyst or tissue.

biopsy last Saturday abs meeting oncologist on Wednesday.

I don't know if the fact I'm meeting with the oncologist is a sign it's bad or that the consultant said there will be a multidisciplinary team present on my next appointment.

im wondering if he was telling me in a not so certain way.

how are you??

I'm not sure how to find your post. I would like to talk to you also about your situation abs not just about myself. If I can help in anyway I absolutely will

Hi I am currently breastfeeding my 3rd child. I've had some issues on the right side which I think has been ductal thrush which has now cleared up and sore cracks which has also cleared up in terms of no longer being sore but I still have a nipple which seems to be turning in on itself slightly a lot of the time. It is kind of like a crease sometimes horizontal or with a bit of a curve. It completely comes back out after feeding or if I give it a bit of a squeeze but when I take my bra off it is usually retracting back in a bit. I've been to the gp and been referred to a one stop breast clinic. The waiting is just awful. It's on Wednesday so not too much longer now. The gp couldn't find any lumps at all and neither can I. She said it was just for peace of mind. Every time I google inverted nipple it mentions sign of cancer but I have also found things saying it can be due to breastfeeding damaging and shortening the milk ducts. Anyone had any experience of this?

Hi I've managed to copy and paste above. I've been looking at this cancer chat for a few days and noticed often no one replies which is such a shame and people in the similar situations may as well link up!

Ah I see. I don't know what to say other than it sounds like they are nice and it is all in hand. But you never know it could be something benign?

Your appointments are this Tuesday? And Wednesday? 

My appointment with the oncologist is Wednesday.

I feel so sick with fear.

I really just sensed at the hospital last Saturday that they suspect something but obviously couldn't tell me 100% without my 2 biopsy sample results coming back.

awww you must be experiencing pain, bless you. I hope it isn't interrupting babas feeds too much or making you too fed up.

it's the most worrying thing. The wait is stressing my body so much

I know how you feel I feel completely shattered too which I think is stress and hubby is the same. I am very distracted with the older kids and my eldest keeps asking if I'm ok bless him. It did affect the feeding and supply and was painful and at one point was in tears with it all but that has now all resolved, no pain, soreness gone and he's feeding fine. 
 

I am Wednesday also, not many days to get through! Such a shame it is lockdown plus dreadful weather just when we need to be distracted!

Are you nesting with an oncologist on Wednesday??

im so nervous. 
 

I feel like I've almost convinced myself it is bad. It's not leaving my head.

im driving myself insane

No I'm not sorry I'm only going to the one stop breast clinic so know I am not in the same position as you. At least you will be clearer about what is happening. Have you told some friends what you are going through?

To be honest the only people that know is my husband, my Dad and his partner and my mum and Head nurse at work due to needing time off to attend hospital.

so I can't talk openly to any of my family as I don't want them to know how much I'm really hurting, my husband senses it and has never cared foe me as much as he is doing now, that itself is scaring me as I know he feels it's serious too.

my nurse college has advised me to stay strong and talked it down, but when I told her every little detail of my hospital visit I could tell she was becoming unsure and went very silent on me, then the following day came in with a small gift for my children.

im so blooming panicked. 
I took the girls out today, husband was working. Came back to my car and a note was left on my windscreen that my Boot was left wide open ‍♀️ I'm so not with it, I'm doing things without knowing, then double checking and thinking when the heck did I do that.