Hey,
Im here after reading a post here on breast lumps. I guess I'm here hoping for some words of wisdom and comfort. I'm really struggling and am so worried, my partner is so supportive but I really don't want to overbare him at such a challenging time. He needs a rest from it, too.
This year has just been crazy for the most part, I'm sure you will agree based on COVID-19 alone. 
Earlier this year I gave birth to a still born. After this, in September I got pregnant again however, I miscarried. This has taken detrimental effect on my mental health.

On top of the healing, I'm currently experiencing a lump in my left breast. The doctor confirmed it to be 2cm and mobile. This appeared around two weeks after the miscarriage. It's oval in shape. I'm 26. I know you girls understand what I'm worried it will be and I truly empathise with anyone in this position or one that is similar. 
My doctor, he referred me to a breast clinic. I'm yet to receive an appointment but it really is still early days. I'm so so nervous, it's crazy. It is causing me pain, I'm very much aware that it's there. It's sore and tender feeling.

How I found it, I woke up Monday at 06:30 with a pained chest, proceeded to go into a warm shower so I could massage and potentially heal the pain, only to find a big mass on the left side of my left breast (heart side). Partner confirmed it was definitely a lump as I was so in shock. 
To my knowledge there is no family history of Breast Cancer but I know this means nothing. 
When I was younger (puberty age) I did find a lump at around age 12, on my breast. My mum felt around the lump and rushed me to the gp who confirmed it was a blocked duct, it left a little black vein on my chest following the medication course given. (I don't know if this is relevant, I just really want to give as much info).
This lump on the other hand, the one that I have now, it feels a lot more aggressive. It's not small and hard, more oval and soft/tender. I should mention I feel flutters. Almost like palpitations but not in my heart, more on the lump. I had an ECG for the chest pain and my heart is very healthy. So, this i am sure is not heart related at all it would seem and there is now more of a focus on the lump. Great news that the heart is healthy. 

My breasts are a 34D cup, really dense feeling. Always have been but I'm worried maybe this is something that's been there for a while and the second pregnancy loss has maybe bought it forward and more to my attention, it's really hard not to think that it is cancerous.

I remember when I was 18, I went to the doctors because of lumpy breast tissue and they were convinced it was a viral infection. Again, it was nothing like this. Perhaps hormonal changes and just lumpy dense tissue which I totally understand is normal to have. 

The doctor has made me aware that it could be cancer but he did stress that this is unlikely. A young doc, probably not even 30. I know it's bad of me to think this way but I'm just not assured in my mind. Be it his age or the pain I'm experiencing, it's probably a mixture of everything really. 
I decided to take my mind off things by doing some gardening just now but I had to stop, never have I experienced such an inability to do something I'd normally have zero issues with....... The pain really flared up. Now Im wondering if these palpitations are a result of the inflammation, soreness of the mass.

Now at least I understand I'm to take it easy until this breast appointment. There's no fluid leakage from my nipple, no rash or puckered skin. No real visible skin changes at all, just sore inside pain with on the inside. Constant dull ache and sometimes sharp nipple pain. It's just over two weeks since the last miscarriage. I just really hope things will be ok. 

Any conversation at all would be incredibly beneficial if you have been through or are going through similar. 

Thank you so much, I really can't wait to speak with you!! Xxxx