Hello everyone, briefly whats happened to me so far....

Roughly 8 weeks ago I started with trouble swallowing, I felt as though food was getting stuck in my chest and windpipe.  Over time swallowing became very painful and I was eating biscuits dunked in tea as not to aggravate my throat. 

I went to see my go who said it was Gerd, I was given lansoprazole and referred for a endoscopy (still not heard anything about my appointment yet.)

I then noticed a lump in my neck that kind of runs along the muscles in my neck, back to the doctors who said it was a lymph node and was reacting to the red throat i had qnd the enlarged tonsil. 

I self diagnosed with doctor Google and convinced myself it was oesophagus cancer.  Back to the doctors again because the lansoprazole wasn't working g and had a reaction to Gaviscon.  Still waiting for endoscopy referral and health anxiety driving me mad.  I booked in to see a private ENT specialist who wasn't concerned but ordered a barium swallow.  All came back clear and no problems the specialist was pleased with the results and said again the lump in neck was a swollen node reacting to the tonsil.

Booked another gp appointment to talk about anxiety and have q review of my anxiety medication qnd mentioned the lump in my neck again.  Was told it wasn't a node and referred me for a neck ultrasound.  Anxiety through the roof once again.

Went back to see private ENT who agreed to a ultrasound but said the swelling was a node.  

I have had 3 lots of blood tests, tumour markers 3 months ago.  All have come back ok.

My ear has started being very painful and bleeding, sometimes I feel like something is pressing on my windpipe and my face feels like I'm sunburnt.

I have been back to doctor again today because I found a lump in my armpit, she was reading my notes, examined my neck and has put me on the 2 week pathway. 

Anxiety through the roof. Nerves are shot.

I have a toddler and my only fear is that I will have to leave her and not see her grow up :( 

My mum.was diagnosed with a brain tumour while I was pregnant with my baby which was missed on a MRI scan 5 years previous, so unfortunately my health anxiety is crippling.  

Does anyone have q similar experience or any advice to try and calm a anxious mind.

Thank you for reading xx