Hi all,

 I'm new here so hope I'm posting in the right place.,,

im male, 36 and have been suffering with symptoms I believe could be cancer. 
 I started off about 2 months ago with really bad acid reflux out of the blue, firstly at night then after every meal I ate. I'm a bodybuilder and am used to eating 6 meals a day (now I have two) about 4 weeks ago I started with trouble swollwing , a "clicking" feeling when swollowing, it's not stopping me eating or doesn't feel as though any food is getting stuck, but I do regurgitation some food after I eat (no vomiting though) about 2 weeks ago my partner noticed a lump on the side of my neck just below my ear on my jaw, seems to be a swollen lymph node, rubbery in texture. I was sent for an endoscopy 2 weeks ago which ended up being cancled as I pulled the camera out twice (I was sedated to the max) so they are sending for me to be put to sleep for this doing. I'm freaking out this could be cancer.  no doctor will see me, not even to examin this lymph node. Just been told to wait for endoscopy :neutral: 

I really dont know what to do or were to turn, I'm distancing myself from everyone, I'd happily go private just to get my life back.

id appreciate any advice or reassurance.

Thank you