Horrific health anxiety??

hi! i already ,ade a comment about this but i thought it was worth it's own post anyway.

 

for a few months now i've been having horrible health anxiety, every symptom makes me feel like i'm dying, i always assume the worst and i have to check what's wrong with me online.

 

current hyperfixation is leukemia. constantly worried i have cancer, there's a family history of it in older family members yet i still worry despite i'm still a minor... very frustrating, as a lot of my usual anxiety symptoms are lining up with cancer symptoms and i'm struggling to find reassurance. i can't tell my mum that, she'll just brush this off as anxiety and even though i'm sure she's right i know i won't have any reassurance until i speak to a doctor which i doubt will happen soon..

 

all started when i got a bruise on my knee, completely painless and already yellow-green. instantly googled it as i don't remember getting hit and i've never been one to bruise easily. now i have one just about centre of my ribs (which i think might actually be a skin blemish that's been there for a few months now, only now worried because of my anxiety) and i feel like this is just it for me lol.

 

any reassurance would be appreciated thank you! ^___^

  • I feel your pain. I have had health anxiety for 15 years and it is hell. It robs me of my happiness. I really hate it more than I can put into words. Mine is so chronic that I have been put on antipsychotics. Nothing really helps me. I have had so much therapy, counselling, cbt, weekly psychology appts etc. It seems deep seeded in me because of issues from my past. The one and main thing that will help is not googling. But I know that it is near impossible to stop yourself. I havent googled in 2 months which is major for me but it really is a daily battle. Dont let this rip any more of your life. Please tell your doctor and get support before it gets worse. Im sorry you are suffering this, it is truely an illness in itself and you arent alone. Its awful when your mind cant settle and always thinks the worst. It really is a form of self torture :cry:

  • I have just burst into tears reading this as I am miserable too. Its awful I've spent my life in and out of the doctors and A&E departments. The thing is now I actually have symptoms, pains and aching i have just posted my story. Im convinced now im dying that I have cancer but because of my health anxiety im being misdiagnosed. I actually have aching and am fatigued I am even going light headed. I just wish there was a cure  

  • sorry it made you cry, hope you're doing okay! but yes i completely understand. i'm finally booking myself in for a checkup but i'm just so scared that i'm going to go in and actually be told that i've got something wrong with me; that or like you say, i'll be assured it's just my anxiety and that there's nothing wrong. it's stupid! so mnay of my anxiety symptoms line up with this cancer i think i have so i can't tell whether or not i'm being stupid and i hate it. i wish there were a cure too, you've go this