Hello,

I can't believe I am writing this, I am 31yo 5.10, 11st 7. (Thought I was pretty healthy.. I have ultra short segment Barrett's and hiatus hernia) 2 weeks ago after waking the dog I cleared my throat and brought up some bright red blood. I went to the Drs and they did an emergency referral for X-ray. I went yesterday morning and at mid day they contacted me to say I needed to come back to have another one because there was a small shadow and they thought it was nipple shadow. So I went today with my paper clips. By this stage my anxiety was already pretty bad, although I hadn't had bright red blood since. So I asked the radiographer if it was bad and he said he thought it was clear although he did say he is just a student. 
 

so I came home abit more relieved however i have woken up with a metallic taste and I am sure my spit is very very pale pink. So my anxiety levels have shot up again. 
 

I am terrified the Barrett's has gone bad and I can't help but think of the worst, I am struggling with my thoughts and to think of anything else other than these issues. If anyone has any help /tips on how to get through the worry and get to sleep? I would be so so greatful. I feel like my wife thinks I am always jumping to the worst but I can't help it? I feel so useless and alone, I feel week as a guy for just wanting to cry every time I think about it. The thought of my little boy wanting me but me not being able to be 100% there for him makes me so sad.

I hope there's someone out there that can help x

Matthew