Day one - found lump, referred to breast clinic

This morning has been a roller coaster. Couple of days ago I found a lump.... was it real  ? Maybe not...maybe it wont be there tomorrow ( monday) crack on..keep your mind occupied..dont think about it. Monday...still there.... and now looking in the mirror theres a crease in the skin...ish... This isnt going to go away is it...  Tuesday...... right Stop being a coward..it might not be the big C.... but do you honestly think a) it's going to go away on it's own? b) you can carry on knowing it's there? ...

Wednesday: 9am emailed the surgery on their askmygp app.

Typed in " I've found a lump in my breast " ..cue tears...

Couple of hours pass while I try and concentrate on nothing much.

Call from clinician at the surgery..lots of questions about where it is, how big it is, does it move, is it attached, any redness, any discharge. 

Referred to breast clinic. Usually two weeks but because of COVID...they are a bit behind ..could be 3 weeks.... . Be prepared they will probably do an ultra sound scan and a biopsy there and then. 

Im not concerned about what they do ...liar... but the

.sooner the better. I just need to know what this is!! And hope it isnt what I think it is. No family history of BC..... everything crossed.

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  • Hi,

    I was in your shoes 2 weeks ago! When I went to clinic (last Wednesday) I had mammogram and ultrasound. Radiographer was not worried about the lump/ swelling that has sent me there but said he felt something else. So he decided to do a biopsy there and then. It was nowhere near as bad as I would have expected. Practically painless. He put in a tiny marker for future ref, took another mammogram to be certain it was in the right place and that was it. A bit sore and bruised after but totally manageable.

    I got a call today from consultant to say it was benign and doesn't need any follow up. So there are positive stories- try not to worry too much! Fingers crossed for you. Waiting is hard. I have an MRI on 21st Oct on pancreas so scared stiff about that!- Another waiting game :(

    I hope all works out well for you. Take care. x

  • Hi

    Thank you for replying. You feel so alone. Only hubby and my sister know..had to tell someone. Trying not to think of how to tell the kids if it IS BC. You can see I'm galloping down the road of scenarios. Which is worse making mental lists just incase? Or not in the hope you wont have to? Moved things around in 2 bedrooms yesterday just to keep me busy. If it's a 3 week wait this will be the tidiest house in the countyFell apart half way through tea...no apparent reason..wasnt thinking about it at the time. 

    Lost my dad in July...this really easnt needed on top of all that. 

    Xxxx

  • Hi Traciej

    Slept like a log last night...cheated took x2 lorazepam. Needed to rest but couldnt let it go for some reason. Anyway had excellent from my counsellor this morning....she always lightens my mood bless her. Himselds done the hoovering....I've done the polishing. Put a new dressing on me toe.....sort of lol.  Matron wouldn't approve it.

    Off to dive into a pile of dvds  ..theres a Bette davis in there somewhere.....

     

    Lots of love

     

    Me

     

    #allinittogether xxxx

  • Hey all 

    how is everyone doing? 
    so my result appointment today and I feel sick as a pigZ what if it's everywhere?what if it's to late.  I dunno how I'm going to get through today. 
    I still can't believe I'm sitting here with this **** in my body. 
     

    If any ones got any good relaxation techniques I'd love to hear them I've really been struggling the last few days.

     

     

    thanks for listening all. 
    xxx

  • Hey

    Did you ask for something to help you? I have LORAZEPAM. Calms the old nerves 

    I also have the results of the diabetic blood tests. Considering I had no symptoms...and could have gone to surgery!! One diabetes is 41. Pre is 42-47, diabetics us 48. And yours truly us 84@!!!!@@@@ cant believe it.

     

    Got everything crossed for you chic. Sending positive vibes your way.

     

    #allinittogether xxxx

  • Hi tashag86,

    Good luck on your results hun, might not be as bad as you think

    Let us know how you get on

    Xxxxx

  • What does that mean whatsnext? Is that good or bad? I have no clue on diabetes readings

    How's the toe today? Did you see the podiatrist?

    Xxxxx

  • Goodluck with your results, hope its not as bad as you were thinking..

    Sending prayer and hugs your way.xxx

  • Hey all, so I have invasive ductal cancer. Which is in most of my lymph nodes. I am er and pr positive but waiting on her2 results. So that will then pave the way for treatment wether I will have surgery first or chemo first. But radiation is almost certain. 
    I will have a complete lymph node removal also. Xxx

  • Hi tashag86

    It sounds like I am going to follow in the same foot steps as you. I was diagnosed last week with ductal cancer but that's all I know atm. 

    I have ct scan tomorrow and mri Friday. 

    I have one tumor in my breast very small which I didn't even notice and one under my armpit which is how I got here in the first place! They think 3 of my lymph nodes are affected 

    I'm glad they are getting you sorted out and will soon be starting treatment soon.

    This waiting stage is awful and I'm petrified I'm riddled with it. I have come to terms with having cancer I just want to start treatment and be on the right path to beating this!

    Take care sending lots of love xx

  • Ladies I'm so sorry to hear this news. You will beat it! A strong attitude will go a long way towards recovery. I can't imagine the mental suffering your all going through at the worst possible moment in time too

    Sending love, hugs and plenty of prayers your way

    Xxxxxx

  • Hi.... I have no idea on these numbers either. But apparently 84 is high....very high. 

    The toe..god bless it has still here. Saw the podiatrist....I have had a chilblain episode....... no I couldnt believe it either.  Anyway shes referred me to the same hospital I am under for the breast clinic.  Missed a call from them in way to see practice nurse after podiatrist. Get home and a raft if ansaphone messages landed on my mobile all from different hospital depots last Thursday...friday ..Saturday and Sunday @@@@

    So tomorrow will  a trying to get hold of them all. Nit sure why my phone us not letting me answer " private numbers "

    Doppler tomorrow, dressing change and another pin *** thursday. And ni doubt someone will clobber me for Friday!! I admire how brilliant they all are at pulling out the stops for me at the mo. But I could do with a day off........ oh and got to see the vein man too....apparently 

     

    Hows you?

    #alkinittogether xx

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  • Hi.... I have no idea on these numbers either. But apparently 84 is high....very high. 

    The toe..god bless it has still here. Saw the podiatrist....I have had a chilblain episode....... no I couldnt believe it either.  Anyway shes referred me to the same hospital I am under for the breast clinic.  Missed a call from them in way to see practice nurse after podiatrist. Get home and a raft if ansaphone messages landed on my mobile all from different hospital depots last Thursday...friday ..Saturday and Sunday @@@@

    So tomorrow will  a trying to get hold of them all. Nit sure why my phone us not letting me answer " private numbers "

    Doppler tomorrow, dressing change and another pin *** thursday. And ni doubt someone will clobber me for Friday!! I admire how brilliant they all are at pulling out the stops for me at the mo. But I could do with a day off........ oh and got to see the vein man too....apparently 

     

    Hows you?

    #alkinittogether xx

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  • Oh bless you! It's never ending isn't it?

    I'm fine, bruise is finally going on my boob, just fed up now with not seeing people cos of lockdown. It's strange, since my cancer scare I feel like I shouldn't complain about anything when there are people out there with real problems. I keep reminding myself how lucky I am!

    Keep smiling! You'll get sorted soon, at least your getting answers and treatments for various other things now

    Xxxxxx