Day one - found lump, referred to breast clinic

This morning has been a roller coaster. Couple of days ago I found a lump.... was it real  ? Maybe not...maybe it wont be there tomorrow ( monday) crack on..keep your mind occupied..dont think about it. Monday...still there.... and now looking in the mirror theres a crease in the skin...ish... This isnt going to go away is it...  Tuesday...... right Stop being a coward..it might not be the big C.... but do you honestly think a) it's going to go away on it's own? b) you can carry on knowing it's there? ...

Wednesday: 9am emailed the surgery on their askmygp app.

Typed in " I've found a lump in my breast " ..cue tears...

Couple of hours pass while I try and concentrate on nothing much.

Call from clinician at the surgery..lots of questions about where it is, how big it is, does it move, is it attached, any redness, any discharge. 

Referred to breast clinic. Usually two weeks but because of COVID...they are a bit behind ..could be 3 weeks.... . Be prepared they will probably do an ultra sound scan and a biopsy there and then. 

Im not concerned about what they do ...liar... but the

.sooner the better. I just need to know what this is!! And hope it isnt what I think it is. No family history of BC..... everything crossed.

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  • Hi,

    I was in your shoes 2 weeks ago! When I went to clinic (last Wednesday) I had mammogram and ultrasound. Radiographer was not worried about the lump/ swelling that has sent me there but said he felt something else. So he decided to do a biopsy there and then. It was nowhere near as bad as I would have expected. Practically painless. He put in a tiny marker for future ref, took another mammogram to be certain it was in the right place and that was it. A bit sore and bruised after but totally manageable.

    I got a call today from consultant to say it was benign and doesn't need any follow up. So there are positive stories- try not to worry too much! Fingers crossed for you. Waiting is hard. I have an MRI on 21st Oct on pancreas so scared stiff about that!- Another waiting game :(

    I hope all works out well for you. Take care. x

  • Hi

    Thank you for replying. You feel so alone. Only hubby and my sister know..had to tell someone. Trying not to think of how to tell the kids if it IS BC. You can see I'm galloping down the road of scenarios. Which is worse making mental lists just incase? Or not in the hope you wont have to? Moved things around in 2 bedrooms yesterday just to keep me busy. If it's a 3 week wait this will be the tidiest house in the countyFell apart half way through tea...no apparent reason..wasnt thinking about it at the time. 

    Lost my dad in July...this really easnt needed on top of all that. 

    Xxxx

  • Bless you ginger girl

    Sending love and big hugs for your OP too

     

    #allinittogether xxxx

  • I suppose their hands are tied.

    The nurses are amazing and do a fantastic job. I'm glad she's managed to calm you somewhat and brought you onto a more even keel. 

    Get those films on, put feet up and chill you so deserve it. 

    Think of it this way...... Your fight will still be there tomorrow, there is nothing you can do about it today so forget about it for the rest of the day and relax. You can't spend every waking hour worrying, stressing and panicking otherwise your mental health will suffer too. this is what I say to myself everytime I find myself facing problems it helps me, maybe it will for you

    Always here xxxxx

  • Oh Whatnext I’ve only just seen your post...that’s just devestating for you! I was told by GP ‘don’t listen to social media -they have been continuing to treat people!’ Surely they can keep areas of the hospital seperate but I suppose realistically if they have staff off isolating etc then logistically must be difficult! 

     It sounds like you’ve retained your sense of humour anyway and being positive has to be the best way...and also to swear and scream occasionally!! 

     Talking Pictures is a good TV station for the old films!!!

     

     Heaps of love xxxxxx

  • It gets better......

    My lovely breast care nurse told me to take time out this afternoon.

    I have spent most of it arguing the toss with ASDA. Because of hospital appts I hadnt been on the site and had missed 3 emails telling me my delivery pass needed renewing.

    After 3 hours on a chat box to a 12 year old who told me theres only one order ever been placed on my account...and no record of a delivery pass.( have ordered every week for the last 4 years )

    God almighty!! So I sent the whole rigmarole as a press and media enquiry to ASDA head office.  And where it said " publication" I put " any MSM who would be interested in a lady waiting for breast cancer surgery who Asda are not willing to renew her delivery pass while she is isolating waiting for surgery. TOSSERS!!

    Go on to the ASDA app tonight to add onto this weeks shop and it says xmas slots available........NO THEY ARE NOT. All gone. 

    So I shall do a midnight shop in tesco if needed. But F@#k em. I'm going local!!!! 

     

    ARRRRRRRGGGGHHHHHHHH

     

    #allinittogether xxxxxx

  • Never p### off a woman who is about to blow!! I really hope the next few days are kind to you whatsnext! Because my god you need it! This year has got to be the most shittyist year to date! Not even going to bother seeing in the new year, will be just as crap as this year. And as for Xmas? Bah humbug is all I can say!  Got to get my car through its mot first before I can even think about Xmas

     

    Sending huge hugs and prayers to you xxxxxx

  • Thanx Traciej

     

    The calm voice in the storm. 

     

    #allinittogether xxxx

  • Hi I just want to say good luck. I have been following the discussion and will be thinking of you. 

  • Bless your heart. Just need a new date now

     

    Thank you.

     

     

    #allinittogether xx

  • Morning lovely, 

     

    I have a my ore op assessment this afternoon and I will ask them what chances of my op being cancelled because I will stop off for more Gin on my way home if it's likely to happen. I am still Waiting for CT scan before op to see if my cancer has spread. I still swing from disbelief and despair to **** this I'm going to thrash the life out of this intruder. 
     

    Thinking of you and feel your pain - just drive them crazy with asking when  xxx

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  • Morning lovely, 

     

    I have a my ore op assessment this afternoon and I will ask them what chances of my op being cancelled because I will stop off for more Gin on my way home if it's likely to happen. I am still Waiting for CT scan before op to see if my cancer has spread. I still swing from disbelief and despair to **** this I'm going to thrash the life out of this intruder. 
     

    Thinking of you and feel your pain - just drive them crazy with asking when  xxx

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  • Evening all

     

    Hows everyone doing? Well spent the last two days not chilling. Got involved with  ASDA needing a kick up.the proverbial . Thats currently on a back burner awaiting a formal reply.

     

    So...... this blasted toe hasnt got any better. Pootled off to see the practice nurse this afternoon. She had a look..Dr had a look.  Dressing on it and prescription for antibiotics.... while you're here we'll just check for Diabetes......... yep appears I have that too....another prescription and two appts next week for doplar and glucose levels. Whoever is writing my script? Dump the voodoo dolls for gods sake!!! Toe gets worse...A&E. 

    Oh did I mention surgery rescheduled? On top of pills and potions I'm due in on Monday. Hopefully. 

     

    I swear you couldnt make this up

     

    #alllinittogether xxxx

     

     

  • Hey lovely was wondering how you were doing. I had ore op assessment yesterday. However big shock today - my husband's bladder cancer has returned.  ! Again you couldn't make it up! 

  • Oh no.... I'm so sorry to read that. Not what you needed at all.  Keep us up to speed. All here for you both.

     

    #allinittogether xxxxx

  • Hi girls, was just checking in on you all. My god! You both really are having a truly awful time! As if cancer or the fear of, isn't bad enough you've got other shut to deal with! I'm hating life at the minute. I know that's terribly selfish of me, I'm not ill but life just seems so unfair to everyone atm

     

    Love to both xxxx

  • Hi Traciej

     

    Sorry...had the weekend from hell. So full of new meds I rattle. And they're making me feel sick!@  fluxo somethingorother anti biotics x 4 ....plus a diabetic tab x2

    Didnt sleep at all hardly lastnight....upset stomach...sore toe. Still awake at half two.  Up at half 3.......up again at 5 then again at half 6. I swear to god I feel as if I've been hit by a truck!!

    Missed at least 3 private number calls today..couldnt hit the button on my phone.  I'm about as much use as a wet lettuce leaf at the mo. Really really tired but cant seem to drop off for five mins.

    Cant remember whether I mentioned the podiatrist? Seeing her on Tuesday....blood tests weds. 

    The bonkers thing is I felt fine before the meds....now I feel flipping awful. I've missed calls from my breast care counsellor too........ weekend from hell.....

    No energy.... this cant be right.  Hows everybody else?

     

    #allinittogether xxxx

     

  • Hi whatsnext, 

    Oh for petes sake! Well you'll sleep tomorrow when you've had your anesthetic! I take it your having a general? Which, by the way, all the very best for tomorrow, will be thinking of you. Is it day surgery?

    Sorry if I'm sounding nieve, I just don't know how long you'd be in for

     

    Sending love and prayers xxxxxx

  • Hi Traciej

     

    All cancelled until the toe and diabetes are sorted.

    Xxxxx

     

    #allinittogether x

  • Ahh no @whatnext64  I was sitting thinking about you going in today and that things were finally starting to move forward for you,  I am sending some prayers and love your way

  • Bless your heart.

    That means so much at the mo xx

     

    #allinittogether xxx

  • Oh god really? It's getting ridiculous now isn't it?! Keep your spirits up darling, how is the toe today? Have you managed to get any decent sleep at all?

    Love and hugs 

    Xxxxxx