Hi,

I was in your shoes 2 weeks ago! When I went to clinic (last Wednesday) I had mammogram and ultrasound. Radiographer was not worried about the lump/ swelling that has sent me there but said he felt something else. So he decided to do a biopsy there and then. It was nowhere near as bad as I would have expected. Practically painless. He put in a tiny marker for future ref, took another mammogram to be certain it was in the right place and that was it. A bit sore and bruised after but totally manageable.

I got a call today from consultant to say it was benign and doesn't need any follow up. So there are positive stories- try not to worry too much! Fingers crossed for you. Waiting is hard. I have an MRI on 21st Oct on pancreas so scared stiff about that!- Another waiting game :(

I hope all works out well for you. Take care. x

Hi

Thank you for replying. You feel so alone. Only hubby and my sister know..had to tell someone. Trying not to think of how to tell the kids if it IS BC. You can see I'm galloping down the road of scenarios. Which is worse making mental lists just incase? Or not in the hope you wont have to? Moved things around in 2 bedrooms yesterday just to keep me busy. If it's a 3 week wait this will be the tidiest house in the countyFell apart half way through tea...no apparent reason..wasnt thinking about it at the time. 

Lost my dad in July...this really easnt needed on top of all that. 

Xxxx

2 weeks?! That's a long time to wait isn't it. I was lucky enough to have my ultrasound with the consultation. Hang in there, you'll get through this. One day at a time xxx

Whatsnext, 

Oh bless you 

#allinittogether xxxxx

I know I'm so disappointed. I will call hospital tomorrow and see if I can have any appointment. I'll even sit and wait if I have to. 
I honestly thought I'd know where I stood by now and I'm actually more anxious I think. 

 

cxx 

Of course, I'd feel disappointed too you went to an appointment expecting some answers, maybe wait for results but your anxiety now has to continue another fortnight where ANYTHING can happen ie covid. You can't afford to be kept waiting. Your mental health is at stake if nothing else!

Chin up!

Xxx

Morning from hell..... thought I'd got over balling my eyes out in the bathroom... trying to hide it from hubby...but hes not daft. 

So Ive more or less gone through the curved ball of ...your surgeon is ill........you've got a new one you've never met....  and your Op date is now nov 11th and not the 9th....at a hospital that isnt green...

Anything else you wanna throw at me? Hells teeth!! I've not had time to grieve for my dad yet...my kids have just lost their grandpa ..they dont need this. I DON'T NEED THIS!! 

It's like being in a flaming bubble..and there's no way out.  Cant go anywhere... except the hospital........ I am the worlds worst misery this morning...with a big chunk of angry bird thrown in.  Still got the sciatica giving me hell....... and a sore little toe that really diesnt need to get itself infected...otherwise that will put surgery back. #germolene  ...bucket loads. 

I swear to god I must have been someone really bad in a previous life. 

Rant over.......for now. 

Sorry girls. Needed to vent my spleen.thanks for being here means more than you'll probably ever know.

#allinittogether xxxxxx

You WILL get through this whatsnext, you've made it this far. It's true some people sail through life and others seem to be traipsing through a minefield. I can tell your not a defeatist, pull your big girl pants up, wipe your tears (there will be more, and that's fine, you need to release them) and focus on the hear and now. You can't change anything right now, the wheels are in motion. It may seem like an eternity but it really isn't that far away (11th)  you got this!!

Always here for you 

#inittogether xxxx

Bless you....xxxxx

#allinittogether

Things will all work out. Us women are built to go through anything. We are strong. 
Amd trust me everyone needs to rant. I do it enough. Xxx 

thinking about u and we're all here for u. 
 

xxx

I called hospital today 3 times and managed to get an ultra sound for Friday. So feeling a bit more relaxed atm. (Till Friday when I'll be bricking it) I just hope if it all looks bad I won't have to wait again to get further tests done. 
 

xxxx

Thanks tashag86

Been awake since 5am. Pre op appt not until 10.15. I'll be nodding by then.

I'm going to mention this toe. No point in going through all the rigmarole to fall at the last...... hopefully it's not going to be a problem....she says.famous last words!!

Laters

#allinittogether xxxx  

Good morning lady's I've come on here for support and be able to talk to you all as I can see by all your post that you are all supporting and helping each other through all situations and I think you are all amazing and strong so firstly thank you for all sharing and being here! ️ I don't even know where to start so I'll just jump in I've noticed under my right breast where I originally had a cyst that could not be removed (the needle could not pierce it 2 people tried) probably around 5 years ago it was a small ball like pea size cyst, over the past few months I've not been able to wear bras and been wearing comfort sport like ones and put it of as been so busy (sadly I think most of us women put ourselves and health last) I moved in September and been decorating plus going through a lot since last year as my middle child is severely mentally disabled and had to move into full time residential. So my mind and heart have been elsewhere if I'm honest. Anyway 2 nights ago Monday night I lay in bed and my right breast was so tender and sore I started to feel and where the cyst once was there's a big thickened type lump it's not smooth and feels like it's going into my rib bone it hurts so much plus my breast in that spot over it does. I've looked in the mirror with my arms raised and I was so shocked to see my breast indints in that are with a few dimples in the skin. I rang my drs Tuesday morning and they had no appointments so she said to ring 111 which I did and he referred me to get in my drs so they got me in yesterday and the dr examined me and she felt it straight away with me sat up not lay down and if I'm honest when I saw her face when I did the arm raise I could see she looked concerned she told me she'd do a urgent referral and to await a call to confirm my appointment she also got the nurse to do bloods which they never did in the past (I've been twice since I was 28) I suppose I'm on here just to be able to talk as I have only told my boyfriend as don't want anyone especially my 20 year old daughter to have the worry for the next 2 weeks but feel I need to talk to someone about how I'm feeling as if I'm deeply honest I think it is breast cancer and I know I shouldn't of but putting in my symptoms it could be inflammation breast cancer I don't even know how to feel I'm almost numb not like the other times of feeling worry I think I'm in shock. I'm so sorry for such long post just need to get it all out and I'm hoping I can get some support and strength from you strong inspirational women. Massive love and positivity to each and everyone of you! ️

Good morning lady's I've come on here for support and be able to talk to you all as I can see by all your post that you are all supporting and helping each other through all situations and I think you are all amazing and strong so firstly thank you for all sharing and being here! ️ I don't even know where to start so I'll just jump in I've noticed under my right breast where I originally had a cyst that could not be removed (the needle could not pierce it 2 people tried) probably around 5 years ago it was a small ball like pea size cyst, over the past few months I've not been able to wear bras and been wearing comfort sport like ones and put it of as been so busy (sadly I think most of us women put ourselves and health last) I moved in September and been decorating plus going through a lot since last year as my middle child is severely mentally disabled and had to move into full time residential. So my mind and heart have been elsewhere if I'm honest. Anyway 2 nights ago Monday night I lay in bed and my right breast was so tender and sore I started to feel and where the cyst once was there's a big thickened type lump it's not smooth and feels like it's going into my rib bone it hurts so much plus my breast in that spot over it does. I've looked in the mirror with my arms raised and I was so shocked to see my breast indints in that are with a few dimples in the skin. I rang my drs Tuesday morning and they had no appointments so she said to ring 111 which I did and he referred me to get in my drs so they got me in yesterday and the dr examined me and she felt it straight away with me sat up not lay down and if I'm honest when I saw her face when I did the arm raise I could see she looked concerned she told me she'd do a urgent referral and to await a call to confirm my appointment she also got the nurse to do bloods which they never did in the past (I've been twice since I was 28) I suppose I'm on here just to be able to talk as I have only told my boyfriend as don't want anyone especially my 20 year old daughter to have the worry for the next 2 weeks but feel I need to talk to someone about how I'm feeling as if I'm deeply honest I think it is breast cancer and I know I shouldn't of but putting in my symptoms it could be inflammation breast cancer I don't even know how to feel I'm almost numb not like the other times of feeling worry I think I'm in shock. I'm so sorry for such long post just need to get it all out and I'm hoping I can get some support and strength from you strong inspirational women. Massive love and positivity to each and everyone of you! ️

Hi Lisa, 

Your very welcome, anytime you want to just vent, cry, winge or offer advice or support yourself, your most welcome. It lovely when we got family offering support but sometimes you don't want to burden them with your worries and fears as they're going through the same themselves. 

Your right, women are worse for looking after ourselves. Always putting others first and we never take our own advice either! Maybe we should once in a while!

Keep us updated xxxx

Thank you traciej for welcoming me Your right about not wanting to burden others I think it's also not wanting to make it not feel real too! ️ Next few weeks are going to drag as I'm sure you and everyone else knows and with the new lockdown today it's sort of more worrying to not know if I can take my boyfriend with me to the appointment for support, may I ask did you go alone or did you have someone with you also good luck for results tomorrow ️Xxxx

I went alone but I wanted it that way. Besides I'm on my own, I got the kids but didn't want them with me. The girls don't know, not going to tell them now, my son knew but he was ar work. They did ask me if I had someone with me though. I'm sure they'd allow him, he's there to support you.

My consultant said he'd ring me if the results came back today. He noted when I finished work so hopefully he will ring, if not, I'll have to go to the hospital tomorrow to get them xxxx

Thank you and I can understand why you'd want to go alone that's still something I'm debating with myself I'd probably be stronger alone as he's so supportive and if it's not the news I want to receive I might just break down so still undecided but we will see when I find out if it's still allowed with these new rules. I won't be telling anyone else unless I have to after the appointment. I really hope you get your call today so your not waiting even longer sending you a big cuddle and lots of positive energy ️please do let us know the outcome when your ready to xxxx

Lisha82

You are more than welcome on our thread. 

We laugh,, we cry , we shout, we scream.theres some tough live here too. Please feel free to spill your worries any time. We are here for you too.

#allinittogether xxxx

Seem to have lost another 2 hours on the sofa.

Pre op took three and a half hours!! ECG....bloods.  meeting my alternative surgeon. Learning quite a bit more about where what and why. First time I had been told that I will be under their care for the next 5 years ..... all if a sudden it starts to sink in. 

Unfortunately didnt catch a lot of what the surgeon said. I have found talking to someone wearing a mask has shown up the fact I must have been lip reading for some considerable time. Hes very softly spoken too.

So...here we are Thursday evening...am absolutely cream crackered. Sunday I'm off to the hospital carpark at 10.30am for my covid swab....oh had MRSA swabs done today too.......

And then on Tuesday I have to find the dept of nuclear medicine for the first injection in my nipple.  I bet that is gonna sting... then theres another under anaesthetic on Wednesday. ... apparently. Today I also saw the breast care co-ordinator. And three other nurses. 

Is there any wonder , I hear you say, that you're shattered. So much to take in. So much of not knowing until after the OP. Well no one knows until a couple or maybe 3 weeks before the lymph node tests. 

Would be nice now not to have to think about it ....for at least one day......

We started this journey Sept 29th...and here we are preparing for an op on Nov 11th. First time I wont have done the 2 minute silence....conscious. Not bad for fast tracking eh

#allinittogether. 

Night night ladies 

God Bless xxxxxxxx

Good morning whatsnext64 and everyone ️
Thank you for welcoming me I hope you managed some sleep last night after your draining day, hopefully today you can get some not thinking about it today That was my thoughts this morning after yesterday spending it in my pjs going through every scenario in my head and had completely forgot it was bonfire night until picking my little boy up from school ‍♀️Luckily my boyfriend brought home some fireworks and we did a few but today I'm going to keep busy get the fire pit out go get some food shopping done and put it all together so tonight we can have a family night together and enjoy so try fill yourself with fill positive thoughts and do something to get your mind elsewhere even if just for a few hours, you deserve to have some inner peace after your long day yesterday and the past few months. Sending big cuddles and positive energy to you all today and like you say we're all in this together ️

Had phone call from consultant all clear!! I'm so relieved!!

I'm still going to be here to offer support though ladies, even if I'm not personally taking the journey with you but in spirit I will

So I have a couple of hours at home now before I go back to work. Enjoy a nice relaxing cuppa and reflect xxxxx

Hey.... thats great news. So pleased for you.

Stick around Traciej your positivity is going to be needed next few days.

#allinittogether xxxx

Hi

Slept like a log...until 5am. Blasted toe is still so sore. Think that's what's dragging me down a bit. Hobbling around trying to get things done isnt how I'd planned it.

So...... after more tears this morning....we are in a f!@$ it day. If it gets done ? Great. If it doesnt....F!@$ it . It can wait.

Think it threw me yesterday with the " in our care for 5 years" that's a long time. Hadnt thought much beyond surgery and results. So on a positive note....they're obviously expecting me to be around for a while. 

#allinittogether xxxx