Hi everyone,
I have an appointment tomorrow afternoon for the results of a biopsy I had on a lump in my breast and I'm terrified.
At my last appointment at the breast clinic I wasn't told much, had a mamogram and ultrasound and when the lady who was doing the ultrasound saw the lump she checked my armpit too, she said that looked clear but then took the biopsy and put in a metal marker as well, the consultant then said we'll see you again in about 10 days.
17 days after that it's my results tomorrow, the waiting has been horrendous, I've got a 5 month old daughter who I've been imagining growing up without me etc etc. I suffer with anxiety anyway and this has just tipped it right over the edge so theres not been much sleeping or eating going on either which doesn't help anything.
Of course with all the Covid restrictions I have to attend alone and just the idea of it starts me off crying and panicking.
Sorry for the ramble but I'm not great at talking about anything like this, my partner wants to talk to me about it but I get defensive and change the subject when he starts which I feel guilty about and I know I've not been able to play and act happy for my daughter as much as I should, it's just driving me nuts. I've pretty much convinced myself that it's going to be bad news already and just want it over with now.
If you made it through that wall of text, thanks for reading, I just needed to unload i suppose.
