Hello this is my first time posting on here and I wasn't sure if I should or not but my anxiety is just getting worse by the day so thought I'd try and post on here to see if it helps me abit. 

I've always had moles and beauty marks all my life ( I'm 29 years old atm) so I never thought to check them or think anything of it

Recently I started checking my moles and ended up going to the gp about them. So they checked a few out and she wasn't worried about the first two but then the other on that she saw on my thigh made her want a second opinion because of it having a small darker spec colourwise. It's flat I don't know if over the years it's changed in colour but I do have another 3 that I'm worried about too. 

Two are kinda hard light brown and one of them the edges are blurry all around and the other is abit oval shaped but I just don't know if they are moles or actual lumps so I'm freaking out because one of them appeared a few years back and I didn't think anything of it so now my mind is going crazy thinking that it could be skin cancer and what if its spread and this and that

I've also got 2 beautiful daughters that I'm so afraid of leaving incase I do have something and it's spread to everywhere and it becomes incurable or manageable

I'm just so scared also I forgot to add that my dermatologist appointment is on the 17th and I'm just so scared for getting bad news

I hope someone can give me some advice on this topic