I feel that I am about to completely lose it. I can't sleep heart pounding, constant ruminating...not coping at all. Just before lockdown I was having joint pain. I had a telephone appointment wit a rheumatologist who sent me to hospital fora chest X-ray and some blood tests. The X-ray showed a shadow on my left lung. I had a CT scan, a pet/CT scan with no definitive answer. They then sent me for a lung biopsy which was cancelled at the last minute as they thought the shadow had got smaller. I wish they had done it because at least then I would know.  They did another CT scan last week but still don't know result. I phoned but nurse couldn't tell me anything. Now I am feeling a dull ache in my left side and chest which I'm convinced is a tumour. It's now 6 months since original X-ray and I've tried to stay positive but I'm just about done in with it all. 

any help or advice would be most welcome