hi everyone,

for a while now i have noticed a dimple on my left breast just under the nipple. i ignored it at first, hoping that it would go away, but it hasn't. i also occasionlly get pains in this breast, but i've always ignored that too and assumed its due to period pains. i've only just turned 20 years old, but with a family history of breast cancer and abnormally large breasts (G cup) i'm very worried that something is wrong. i'm just about to enter my last year of university and i'm currently living away from home so this really isn't ideal that i'm going through this now. after speaking with my boyfriend and mum i've agreed that i need to get it checked, so now i'm waiting until the week starts so i can phone my local GP and ask for a phone consultation.

with the coronavirus still having a strong impact, i was wondering how examinations and appointments go - do you get booked in for a mammogram just by having a phone consultation and explaining your symptoms, or will i need to have an in-person appointment too?

as a sidenote, i have always always always hated my breasts. developing big breasts at a young age was awful, and made even worse due to the fact that i'm only 5 foot tall! i've wanted a breast reduction since i was 13, which sounds dramatic but is true. if it did turn out that i do have breast cancer and need a mastectomy, how likely would it be that the surgeons would willingly allow me to get a double mastectomy without reconstruction? I've heard that some surgeons are reluctant to do this if no problems are detected in the other breast seeing as it is technically removing a healthy body part, but i hate my body so much i truly believe that it would make me so much happier rather than having a single mastectomy and reconstruction. would it even be possible to reconstruct a breast to match a G cup?! has anyone else gone through something similar?

i'd really appreciate any advice from anyone who is also going through something similar during this crazy virus, i'm so scared and really don't know what to do. i really don't want to have to drop out of uni if there is something seriously wrong, especially as i've already signed onto a rented house and will lose out on a lot of money

thank you all so much for reading and i hope everyone is doing well Xxx