Breast clinic tomorrow, I'm petrified.

Hello everyone. 

I've been reading all your posts for the last week and they have really helped. 

Found a lump in my left breast last Thursday while in the shower immediately rang the doctor who referred me to breast clinic. I had a phone call yesterday and I have an appointment tomorrow at 11.

 

Im absolutely petrified my good friend and cousin have been diagnosed this year with breast cancer and I can't help but think thus is my turn now. 

My lump is odd sometimes it feels like a sausage then a swelling then there's a lump. 

I've stopped touching it now because I had caused a bruise. 

This forum has really helped but I'm literally holding on by a thread, I have two young children and they know there's something wrong I get upset even looking at them because I'm worried I won't be here to see them grow up. 

I'm probably the healthiest and fittest I've ever been managed to loose weight while down on lockdown and run 5k everyday, I don't feel unwell but bc doesn't show symptoms unfortunately. 

 

I want tomorrow over with but I also know I may not get answers tomorrow if i need to wait for biopsy results. 

Your success stories or even words of encouragement would really help me right now. 

Thanks x

  • Bless you I found a lump on 12th July went to doctors, referred under 2 week wait but with my hospital it is now a 4 week wait. I am ill thinking about it. 

     

    I have been thinking of all the people I know who have had breast cancer and that's 7 which seems like so many doesn't it. Every single one of them has beaten it and are back to living normal lives.

    I have 3 kids and have found myself saying yes to everything over the last couple of weeks. I am sure they are loving it but wondering why

     

    Wishing you the best for tomorrow. It is all such a worry but remember even if it is the worst news it is easily beaten these days due to some fantastic advances!! 

     

    Xx

  • Thank you. 

    I do hope you get your appointment soon, people who I've spoken to say it's the waiting that's the worse thing in all of this and I now know what they mean. 

    Good luck and thanks for replying I do really appreciate it, this forum is going to get me through tonight because there will be no sleeping xx

  • Hi, 

     

    This bit with the waiting is the worst. I'm supposed to get my biopsy results tomorrow after going to the clinic last Wednesday. I'm terrified for tomorrow too but I just want to know now either way. 

     

    I felt better after visiting the clinic though as at least it being sorted x

  • Oh are you? Bless you please let me know how you get on? At least you don't have to wait weeks for the results but a weeks long enough isn't it. 

    You are right at least I've got an appointment and it's moving forward isn't it.  don't know how I'm going to handle having to wait for biopsy results. 

    I just hope leaving tomorrow I'll feel better thank I do now. 

    Good luck tomorrow and thanks for replying x

  • Hi, 

     

    Try not to worry. I know it's hard though! My mum died of breast cancer 7 years ago so I'm scared too like you.

     

    You may not even need a biopsy. Some people I was with at the clinic just had the consultant and mammogram. I went for the mammogram and both breasts are clear but my lump is in the breast tissue in my armpit I Always have to be diffrent :silly:

     

    They could not tell what the lump was on the ultrasound so that why they gave me the biopsy. Hopefully they can rule things out for you without all the tests. Have you been to the clinic before? 

  • I'm so sorry to read you lost your mum to the disease it's a good sign your breasts are clear?

    No I've never been to the clinic before, I've had all the paperwork through this morning along with the questionnaire that I have to fill in beforehand. 

    I just have this feeling that my world is about to be turned upside down tomorrow and life won't be the same again. 

    Thank you x

     

  • Hi, 

     

    I had that feeling too I was literally shaking in the chair. But the people were so nice it relaxed me a bit. Be prepared to wait around in a gown. I was there from 3pm-5.30 but that was with all 3 tests. Hopefully they will be able to rule thing out for you without them all.

     

    I'm trying not to worry. I thought my lump was fixed and deep  but the consultant said it's under the surface and movable so I think we panic a lot. Even my GP said it was deep! 

  • Thanks for the advice I didn't think of the gown bit. 

    I can see me being in a right state but like you said and my friend they are nice and will be a massive support. 

     

    I only had a phone consultation with my GP so it's only myself and husbands that's felt it. 

    You hear of people finding lumps all the time but I suppose they come in Al shapes and sizes don't they. X

  • Hi, 

     

    I bet we are both feeling the same right now you with your appointment and me with my results. I was feeling positive all today but its hurting again tonight so I can't forget about it!

    I just want to know now even if it is bad news this waiting is messing with my head even more x

  • Yes I'm like that in wanting to know what I'm dealing with. I get waves of positivity and I push it to the back my my mind and them bam this darkness comes from nowhere, its 50/50 isn't it! 

    I slept surprisingly well I have been on the go purposely for the last 3 days so I would be tired and get through the night. 

    How did you sleep? 

    X