Hello
Firstly I feel like a fraud posting this when all of you lovely people are battling and struggling with a definite diagnosis but i hope you can help.
I lost my beloved mum after a 3 year battle with ovarian cancer on April 27th 2020.Me and my dad nursed her to the end but because of Covid when she had to go to hospital-we could not see her and she died with just a nurse holding her hand.i will never get over that.As if that wasnt bad enough-whilst I am still grieving...
I found a lump in my breast on Wednesday evening and went to the GP yesterday.She felt it straight away and shes estimated it's about 4cm.Of course this was her measurements using just her hands so not accurate but I was still worried.-the GP would not say whether it was cancer and I dont blame her-without all the gear-you cant know anyway.
Just received a phone call at 8.30am this morning from the hospital saying they can see me at the breast clinic next Friday.Because of Covid I have to go alone.
My nanna had breast cancer in the 60s-my sister when she was 32(shes fine 15 years on) and my mum had ovarian cancer.My mum was tested for the BRAC gene when she was ill but it came back negative so it meant I didnt need the test.
Sorry to waffle on and it could be a cyst/fatty tissue etc.I had a hysterectomy when i was 39 due to endometriosis but kept my ovaries and been through the early menopause so dont know if any of this hormone related.
Just seeing what mum went through-chemo-hysterectomy-colostomy bag fitted-steroids etc just makes me think I cant face it if I'm diagnosed....was anyone else scared at the thought of being diagnosed let alone actually being..
