Hello, I am new here but didn't know what else to do as I am so scared worried and can't stop crying. Basically I have a much larger left tonsil and I think have had for a few years now but Dr referred me last December. I saw an ENT consultant who said tonsil was large but appeared normal and benign with some crypts and gave me a choice of tonsillectomy for my anxiety and not for a medical reason. I went away and tried to forget about tonsil then and decided against the tonsillectomy if he thought it looked OK!? Anyway since then I've had a few sore throats and then went back and in February managed to get back on a waiting list for the tonsillectomy. Then came Covid and I've been waiting and worrying for months.  3 weeks ago I had another odd sore throat on the side of the large tonsil. It wasn't painful enough to cause me real discomfort but enough for me to notice it. I was prescribed antibiotics over the phone which I dunno if they worked or not as I don't think it was even an infection. Although I had a few small white spots which seem to come and go and I demanded I be referred urgently to ENT. Then 2 weeks ago I noticed on the left side 2 swollen lymph nodes. Largest prob pea sized I think it's hard to tell and other smaller. Firm but moveable and now I think I can feel another tiny one directly underneath that. I have a telephone call with a consultant on Tuesday for my 2 week referral. And the wait is killing me. I can't stop worrying it is consuming me. I have 2 young children and I worry all they see me do lately is cry. I just don't know what to do as I know it will be cancer.