Hi all

It all started three weeks ago when I started getting nausea and vomiting, I had a telephone appointment after a couple of days where I was prescribed anti sickness meds and omeprazole as they thought I had GERD. The vomited stopped after a few days but I still didn't feel right and the horrible nausea continued along with not being able to sleep properly and awful night sweats so this time I went and was seen by my GP, at this point I had a blood test that came back normal and a urine test that showed I had a small amount of blood in my urine so my gp sent me for an urgent ultrasound, I saw the doctor on Thursday had the ultrasound on the Saturday, after the ultrasound I asked if the results were normal and he said that my right kidney had shrunk and that a report would be sent to my gp by the following Friday. Monday afternoon my gp rang to say they'd already had the results and I was being given an urgent 2 week referral to the urology department, but she said that it was either a blood clot or something wrong with the urethra. Yesterday I had a phone call from a nurse from the urology department and I just said to him I don't understand what the urgency was, my blood was normal, my urine test was normal and he said that they think it could be cancer. That was the moment my world came crashing down, I'm 34 with 3 small children and no had mentioned anything about cancer. My mum died at 49 from cancer not kidney cancer but still. Anyway he rang me back yesterday afternoon to say that the consultant had looked at my scan and they weren't overly worried but wouldn't know for sure until I'd had a CT scan with contrast and that, that would happen fairly quickly, if I haven't heard from them by the middle of next week to call him back. I've not heard anything today so I'm guessing I won't now till after the weekend. How am I meant to cope with this? I can't sleep and when I do I dream about the hospital, my nausea has come back with a vengeance and I randomly burst into tears. How did everyone cope with the waiting? I feel like I'm slowly falling apart. Any advice for the wait would be fantastic. Has anyone under 40 been diagnosed? What was it like? Sorry for rambling.