How do you not go insane waiting?

I'm not dealing with my anxiety well.

 

There is a lump in my breast.. I visited doctor 4 months ago and she said it was nothing. Later on my breast swelled up and I finally got referred to breast clinic last week. Straight away they were concerned and did mammogram / ultrasound / biopsy all at once and they told me they were 'worried' and that it was most likely cancer. Since then I've felt achy and my neck / arm is aching.. I have three more days until results and I just can't deal.. I'm a mess... can't think of anything else apart from this and how scared I am. All the worst things are constantly going through my mind. How do you all cope with the waiting? 

  • Hello lovely

    I'm doing well thank you. I had lumpectomy surgery and sentinel node removal on April 23rd and I was very lucky that all of my tumour was removed with clear margins and also that there was no spread to my lymph nodes. My tumour was oestrogen positive so I'm taking Letrozole for the next 5 years at least. I had radiotherapy last week over 5 days, and I'm still feeling really tired from that but otherwise all good. This forum helped me so much, so chat on here, talk to friends, don't worry in silence - come on here and have a good vent and let it all out!!! xxxx

  • Hello Sunshine 12345 

    I agree 100% - the waiting for the first biopsy results then results after surgery were by far the hardest parts. I kept busy by cleaning and tidying, clearing out wardrobes and hoovering - my house had never been so clean!!! xxx

  • Hi Ellen 

    Try not to use Dr Google - I made that mistake and it drove me nuts! Any questions, ask them on here, because you can guarantee that someone on this forum will have the answer

    Lots of love xxx

  • Thanks - that's good advice... I've had a little bit of good news amongst all the bad.. this week I also had my gynae appointment because my Pap smear came back abnormal before lockdown.. after the breast biopsy and being told by the docs that it was worrying I'd convinced myself that I actually had cervical cancer that had spread to the breast so when I went for my gynae appointment I just broke down in tears.. the gynae appointment actually turned out to be ok.. they took a tissue sample but said that they really weren't worried and that it didn't look cancerous at all. I guess we all have to try to stay positive through all the anxiety...

  • Hi Ladies,

    God this pesky wait is the worst!!!!

    I am doing this for the 3rd time since February!

    I had fine needle aspiration of one area at my first appointment which came back benign but was called back for a stereotactic guided biopsy for micro calcifications in the other breast. 

    The results of this showed atypical cells needing further exploration which due to Covid was put on hold.

    i was called back 2 weeks ago for vacuum biopsy and a chat with a Macmillan nurse about what they were looking for.

    This final phase ends tomorrow at 9am. I have an appointment with the surgeon at the hospital.

    i don't think there is anyway to get through this time but you just do in the end.

    i have driven myself crazy on google, got way to drunk a few times. Cried, been tetchy the works

    i have nearly called the number the Macmillan nurse gave me several times this week. I feel mental and neurotic!!!

    i wish you all the best for your appointments Friday let's hope it's a happy outcome for us all 

    xx

  • Hi. Sounds like I am in a similar situation. At hospital today for mammogram, ultrasound and biopsy. Results over the phone in a week. Feeling a bit tired tonight. Will just try to keep myself preoccupied and stay off the internet.

  • Rest up and take care of yourself! I've felt tired too since my biopsy.. think it's the trauma of it all as much as anything else. What has seemed to help a bit for me with the anxiety is taking Kalms and watching old episodes of shows that I used to like.. something nice in the familiarity..

  • Will definitely take it easy. Sitting in the garden and watching some comfort tv always helps. Came through emergency bowel surgery a few years ago so have confidence in the medical process. Look after yourself and good luck with results. 

  • How did everyone do?

     

    My test came back positive for invasive ductal carcinoma and I'm positive for HER2... I'll need chemo apparently and surgery.

  • I'm sorry to hear that.  Did you get the results by yourself?  It's a lot to take in. I'm waiting for my biopsy results next Wednesday July 1.  It's been a long week so far.