Waiting to find out if it’s skin cancer

Hi all, 


I'm Hannah, 26 and awaiting a mole diagnosis. 
 

thank you for taking the time to read this. I just need some space to vent, I'm writing this as I'm sobbing. A few years back I had this mark on my scalp. I didn't think anything of it, got a GP to look at it who was unsure what it was but nothing further was done
 

randomly I got my partner to take a photo of it as it was bothering me the other day. Honestly my heart stopped when I seen it. It's grew and fits all the criteria alongside similarities to pictures of skin cancer on the net. I've spoke to my GP who has been sent some pictures. She said she will contact me soon. 

I've suffered with depression for a while and this is a new relationship. I've constantly been saying this is too good to be true as I don't deserve happiness or my amazing boyfriend, and now I feel like I'm being punished by having a new happiness after years of being abused in one to now potentially having cancer.

im now beating myself up of course by not pushing doctors years ago to investigate further.  

im sorry if this sounds dramatic it's just how I feel. I'm so scared. What if it is cancer? I can't physically take this. What helps bring you all peace? Help me please. I just want a cuddle of someone. 
 

 

  • Hi Hannah, 

     

    I'm so sorry to hear that you're stressed and I completely understand what you are going through. it's hard to believe that GP can tell anything based on photos but trust me, they are trained people unlike us using Dr Google. I convinced myself recently that my lymph nodes are big, hard, close to each other just as described on the cancer website. I was crying for 2 weeks waiting for my appointment, googling everything and basically feeling every symptom I read about , I was sure I have cancer. Turned out my lymph nodes where completely normal size and I was just really pushing my fingers in to feel them... However I had some pain on one side of my throat/ear and that got my GP concerned, he referred me to a specialist straight away. Luckily everything can clear but  that just proofesif there is even a tiny bit of concern, they will refer you straight away. Of course they are stories where doctors just ignored very obvious symptoms, so it's good to just keep eye on ourselves but don't panic over every little thing. Stress is nothing good! Try to forget about this mole for a bit, don't check every day as the steroid cream may take a while to work. Fingers crossed for you, I'm sure it will all be fine and you will have a long happy life with your new bf xx 

  • Hi hannah 

     

    I'm 17 and absolutely terrified of every mole on my body. I've always had quite a few but recently they all look dangerous to me and I'm stressing myself out, not eating etc... to make matters worse i noticed once in an area I've never checked before and it doesnt look right to me. I've convinced myself I have cancer and I'm so worried about having stage 4 or something, I literally cant sleep.

     

    I'm glad your gp doesnt think its serious

     

    Karen

  • Hi hannah 

     

    I'm 17 and absolutely terrified of every mole on my body. I've always had quite a few but recently they all look dangerous to me and I'm stressing myself out, not eating etc... to make matters worse i noticed once in an area I've never checked before and it doesnt look right to me. I've convinced myself I have cancer and I'm so worried about having stage 4 or something, I literally cant sleep.

     

    I'm glad your gp doesnt think its serious

     

    Karen