Hello . So I was a little late having my smear about 8 months I would say ,I kept putting it off I suppose I knew deep down something was maybe a bit off and was just a bit scared of results . I had another letter during lockdown I rang doctors and they booked me in I actually had my smear while everyone was in lockdown and didn't have a problem booking which was good because I keep reading stories of ladies not being able to book which is sad . So off I went I knew by the nurses reaction she was a little worried she said you have lots of discharge and asked me a few questions about my periods etc ! I have a Mirena coil in had this for maybe 6 years I would say so this has calmed my periods down a lot but other than that I have had lots of scary symptoms about 6 months ago i started to lose control of my bladder I actually didn't no I needed a wee until I was dribbling in a middle of a shop I put this down to a wee infection I've had lots in the past but this wasn't a normal thing I did, it just started since then when I need to go to the toilet I need to go there and then don't have a lot of warning , also some bleeding after sex when I would wipe , can't remember a day when I haven't had discharge, sometimes I can get quite itchy down there but the main thing is the bloating I have been experiencing severe bloating for a while now I kept putting it down to ibs I would cut out certain foods nothing worked (my bowels seem ok) and probably the worse symptom is the fatigue which I also put down to sertraline that I take but I come off then for a while and the fatigue was still there  . I had my results though a letter about 4 weeks after smear it says borderline changes and High risk hpv . I have a colposcopy on the 13th of July . I keep thinking all sorts in my head and I'm so worried I'm so lucky I have such a good support system around me I have a beautiful 10 year old daughter who is my world she is the only one I keep thinking of any advice would be much appreciated thank you so much for reading I no I went on a bit but it was so nice to get it off my chest x