Well I saw dr Thursday and I have my appointment Monday ( tomorrow ) urgent appointment , I don't want to go I don't want to put myself at risk of covid or my children and I wouldn't go home for 10 days in case I could pass it to my kids .... it may sound crazy but I don't want to know anyway if I have it I thinks it's pointless because I wouldn't want treatment , of course I wanna live for my children but if it's out of my hands it's not my choice , everyone is giving me a headache and saying that I'd do this to my own children and risk dying and are been not supportive I mean I don't want support I don't want tea and biscuits and I don't want a arguement I just want everyone to forget this and me to carry on with life has normal ... is this normal I'm just too tired before I even start