Hi Jasmin its Jacquie, 

Im so glad to hear that there was some positive news and that it hasnt gone elsewhere. This is the new I want too. I havnt heard anything yet, waiting for the call, then an appointment to discuss the treatment.

So no Chemo? Is that because its a particular type? I really dont want chemo but will do what they advise. Im trying to do all I can to support the future treatment and trying to stay positive. Today was a good day.

I think I can friend you if that is OK? We can keep u0 to date with our journeys. 

Speak soon,

Jacquie

Hi  jacquie

Yes you can add me as a friend of course. 

Im not sure its the type of of canceer that ive got thats determined the radiotherapy instead of chemotherapy.i think its probably because its not spread anywhere else apart frim.my lymph nodes, i think if  it had gone anywhere else  the staging would be higher and chemotherapy would be needed.  I like you  would dread that , but my son had chemotherapy and was really great with handling it all. He wasnt ever sick , he said he just felt a bit hung over and tired at first, he did  get a strange taste in his mouth at first but nothing he couldnt handle he said. Hes been absolutely amazing, necer complained once and actually when told he was to.have chemotherapy, he said " Mum im.really excited about getting chemotherapy as i know its killimg the cancer". Amazing right ...i was in awe if him , i could never be that strong and brave. But hopefully you will get some some good news soon too jacquie.  Let me know how you get on.   Just a little bit about me , im 63 will be 64 in November, i have a daughter Gemma who is 38yrs old and my son Adam who is 35yrs old , im a widow scince 1997 , i have 3 Grandchildren  Jamie from  my daughter  who is 11 yrs old , and 2 Grandaughters from.my son  isabelle who will be 8yrs old on the 16th June and Olivia who is 4yrs old  will be 5yrs old on new years day, i adore them all.   Stay   strong my ,lovely and hope you get your results soon. Xxx

Hi jac

how are things ?? Sorry I've not replied sooner I sort of just blocked everything out and tried to concentrate on my kids past few days

tomorrow is my consultant appointment with biopsy results so unfortunately I'm not able to block this out any longer, I think it's the not knowing that is getting to especially were the CT is concerned, it's scheduled 26th June so still a wait to go and I'm concerned they won't start any treatment until all the results are back when all I want to do is kick this cancers *** !!

it would be nice to keep in touch, let me know how you are 

alison xx

Hi Alison, no worries, I. really know how it is right now. I have good days and flat days, trying to stay as positive as possible. So it will be a week tomorrow since the shock and I guess Ill hear by middle of next week. This is an awfuyl wait in Limbo.

Ive gone healthy diet mad, Im a bloody vegan anyway so you would think Im healthy enough, I dont even get ill, no colds. nothing. Everyone else around me smoking and drinking and its just thye luck of the draw I guess. Bad luck for me and Im usually very lucky.

Im walking with a friend most days and she makes me giggle, that really helps. Fingers crossed for you re CT scans, we will kick cancers ***!

Im here and please keep in touch, I'll let you know my results too.

Much love,

Jacquie

Hi Jac

how are you doing ? Hope your still walking and giggling xxx

had my consultant appointment yesterday, I've been told it's Grade 3 Breast cancer, oestrogen negative and HER negative, not really sure what this means, anyway as I'm still waiting for CT they have sent my referral to oncology rather than waiting which is positive

They say the plan will be chemotherapy then surgery then radiotherapy, as long as CT is ok so it's fingers crossed for this

i think I've actually got my head around this at the minute and it's just a case of getting on with it, I'm lucky my partner is amazing and my friends and family very supportive

my next hurdle is telling my children, Noah is 18 months so he hopefully won't know any different but Eloise is 10 and Nieve is 6 , so this hurdle is going to be a hard one

when is your next appointment??? Sending positive thoughts and hugs 

alison xxx 

Morning lovely, you sound a little brighter, we have to take each day as it is, Im not trying to be anything, or avoid emotions, one day I might feel worried and scared and the next my normal positive self. I'm not trying to control my emotions, but I live alone and don't have kids, my friends and family are silly buggers so they cheer me up.

It's a more complicated thing if you have kids, selfishly I am just thinking of myself because thats my situation. I just want to know where I am, is it life threatening right now, has it spread to other parts of my body, or has it just gone to lymph and its possible to beat it...... I reckon I should know by Weds.

In the meantime, I advise us all  to support our own healing by walking in nature, eat lots of greens, berries and drink green tea, all support the body and have cancer fighting properties, maybe this wont help the cancer that is already there but might help with the future. Do Yoga, Im a yoga teacher so thats easy for me.....nature is yoga though.

I wish you all the love and light that I can send via the waves of the internet, one day at a time, try not to drift too far into the future, it really does not help us, easier to say than to do..

xxx Jacquie

Thanks so much, so I had a good and very long and detailed chat with consultant who is a total godsend and so compassionate.

He has informed me that it is stage 2, grade 3 so aggressive and possibly only gone to one lymph. I will have my MRI, Bone and CT scan in one day tomorrow which is great, then oncologist on tuesday. Hopefully I will start chemo in 3 weeks and start to bash this ****** with all the power I have. I think after chemo I will have the op.

I so appreciate your replies, I wish youl well, much love to you and good luck

Jacquie

Hi jac

hows things, how are you

i had oncology appointment yesterday told it's stage 3 grade 3, so am devastated over that. Still waiting for CT so am going out of my mind with the waiting. I seem to be able to get my head round things then all of a sudden it's back to square one again

anyway consultant says hopefully starting chemotherapy next week one day a week for 12 weeks initially

hope your ok Alison 

Hi jac

how are you doing ?? 
so I had oncology appointment my cancer is grade 3 stage 3 which I expected. So chemotherapy once a week for 12 weeks then every two weeks for 8 weeks. My CT scan is next Friday so just need that out the way. I had my first chemotherapy session yesterday and the girls were absolutely lovely. Due to have picc line fitted next Thursday which will make things so much easier with bloods.

i originally told my girls mummy had a bug in her boob that needed special medicine that would make mummy tired and make her hair fall out, they seemed to accept this then one night last week over tea my eldest asked was it cancer, so I said yes and she took it really well. We are now in the process of choosing wigs and headscarf's together

please keep in touch Jac hope your ok

alison.  Xxxxx

Hi Alison, so glad your treatment has started. It is a weird thing to look forward to but it means it's starting to help you with the fight.

i love your story of "bug in boob" made me really giggle.

how did you get in with the wig lady? I am a lover of all things wiggy so I embraced that bit with joy. Although some of the wigs she put near my head I was appalled by! But I did giggle.

im getting the pixie cut and a pixie wig and my friend is going to give me more wigs in pink and purple etc. and cut them for me. 
so waiting for Braca test, liver function test and they found to my surprise  "multiple" gallstones! So they need to be looked at. 
staet chemo around 15th. I am possibly taking part in trials so I am hoping I get selected for that.

When I had MRI they found a patch behind my cancer that they want to biopsy so I have to have a MRI BIOPSY to decide mastectomy or lumpectomy. I want both boobs off so I'll let you know.

i am pretty good at the moment head wise but have had a few days of tears but am so supported by friends and family.

lets keep in touch please let me know how chemo is going.

sending you love 

j