Hi all! 

I've been reading a few of the ladies posts on here and 1st of all I would just like to send warmth and love all your ways. As we all know any health scare is awful and tormenting. Whilst delving into the unknown with the anticipation of only time will tell until you recieve your biopsy results with the all clear of the big C or that devastating news of a reatment plan, all dependable on each circumstances.

I found a lump in my breast on the 29th of April (I've got quite small breasts 34C and I've breast fed 5 children) I am 35 years old and I tend to look after myself as a fitness professional. I waited to see if it went down after my period but it never. So I called the doctors explaining my symptoms, soreness in right breast, a small lump that seems mobile but doesnt hurt to touch but other areas around the breast hurt... a lil discomfort if anything.

Spoke to Doctors on the Monday the 10th of may I was booked in my Thursday the 14th of may. 

I didnt know what to expect and turned up by myself, probably the worst thing I could have done. After the clinician took my history and said it had the characteristics of a fybroadenoma and said they would like to do an ultrasound scan on my right breast. So off I go for the ultrasound none the wiser. 

Sat down and they lady was like yeah it looks like a fybroadenoma and took measurements and as she examined the rest of the breast found cysts present. Well these where were the pain was stemming from as I could see everytime she went over one it would hurt. 

All of a sudden she says she would like to take a needle biopsy of the lump to confirm it is an fybroadenoma. I was on the table and like okay... I actually had a panic attack and had to ask to put my music on in my head set and to give me a minute. They were lovely got me water and told me to lift my knees up, feet flat. It was so scary and painful I had to get them to use more anesthetic. It was an aweful feeling of tugging after. They found it hard to reach as they said my breast tissue was very dense. I was then told two weeks for the biopsy results and sent on my way with the notion it's a fybroadenoma.

3 weeks later I'm still waiting, I've been experiencing all kinds of odd feeling of pains and needles and itching, stabbing pain just started occurring in my nipple. I called my doctors and the nurse practitioner who I've got a lovely rapport with basically told me it's most likely the stressful thoughts of worry I'm feeling in my breast and it's in my hurt and to nurture good thought and smells and warmth around the breast... lovely a nice holistic approach I get it. But hold on I noticed the lump because of the feelings in my breast and now it's in my head. Yes I understand it's an anxious time but wow there could be an infection after the biopsy!?!

Anyways I got the call today from the breast clinic. And they used theyrd jargon to tell me that they needed another biopsy as the one they have is non concordant. Then she softly said to me 'do you know what that's means?' Obviously I dont? So I said no all in a daze. She bacsically said that what they saw on the ultrasound is not the same as what they found in the biopsy and someone would be in touch to book me in for a biopsy. 

What is that supposed to mean? It's not fybroadenoma? So what is it? I was in a state of shock I didnt get to ask any of these questions, more than say okay! 

Now my heads messed up more than before. What have I just been told? It doesn't match what we thought it was? In lamon terms! Okay well I did think it was odd that at 35yrs old a lump appears by itself and nipple discharge. I'm really in touch with my body. 

I dont want to worry so I've been keeping my self busy to take my mind off it, but I'm tired and I feel like no one understands my concerns as no one likes to talk about these things. 

It's just a bit naff I need to now wait not only for the appointment but the results again. 

Has this happened to anyone. And sorry I dont mean to scare anyone but I'm really quite scared of the unknown myself and I'm kind feeling like I just indirectly got told somethings not right.

Much love

Z x